The Golden Birthday, A Fresh Start
Saturday, November 30, 2019
Thanksgiving marked my "golden birthday." I'm twenty-eight now and as I sit here procrastinating on pulling all the Christmas decorations out of the garage, I can't seem to figure out what I want to do with myself over this next year. I haven't been able to figure out what my next adventure is or what my next goal is and frankly, I'm a little worried. Am I about to have a midlife crisis?
The only thing I do know is that I'm sick and tired of being out of shape? In January 2010 I was down to 140 pounds. By 2015 I had ballooned back up to my highest of 184. In 2016 I had (unsafely) dropped down to 140. At our wedding in 2017 I was 153. NYE 2018 I was 177. And now, sitting here two days after my twenty-eighth birthday, I am 163.6 pounds.
Weight has always been an issue for me. And clearly it's something I think about because ten years after the fact, I can recall to you how much I weighed in a specified month. I am an emotional eater, and I eat out of boredom, and if there isn't a huge incentive for me to *not* eat, then I will typically sabotage my weight loss goal unless I have other people around me who are losing weight, too. I'm a math person, so I understand that it takes a calorie deficit to create weight loss, but the emotional side takes over the logical side of me more often than not and I sit in the 160s weight-wise more often than not. I hate it.
My current tactic is to look at foods I want and calculate exactly how many steps it "costs" to eat. Something with 100kcal in it will take me 2,906 steps to burn off by walking. So then I ask myself, do I really want it? And if I do really want it, am I going to actually want it after I go walk those 2,906 steps *before* I eat it? Because that's the new plan. If I want a snack, I need to work for it first.
Hard work and finding new friends in the SP community to be encouraging and supportive with. That's where I think I'm most lacking right now: support and accountability. I just found some new spark groups and my goal is to start posting in them regularly, so hopefully I'll make some connections there. Fingers crossed.