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Finally feeling a change

Tuesday, December 03, 2019

So - for the past 4 years I've been walking around in what Tom Venuto (Burn the Fat Feed the Muscle) calls "Unconscious Incompetence." Basically I've been walking around eating what I want, when I want and not even realizing it. Not realizing it, not caring? Is there really a difference. Perhaps. Either way it doesn't really matter to me. I have been literally eating myself to death. My knees hurt, it's harder and harder to do things I enjoy, I'm the highest weight I've ever been and I'm wanting to hide.

BUT! I have noticed and I do have a STRONG desire to change. Before we went on vacation we ate a lot of pizza. Its quick, easy clean up and everyone enjoys it. I could have kept going but my kids had had enough. We go on vacation where we eat whatever and we get home and my baby boy says "Mom, we really need to eat healthy." The child is 6! Both of my boys are healthy, active and happy. But I know that if I don't change things, they wont always be that way. And what does it say about me, as a mother, when the kids ask for something healthy and say that pizza is too much? Honestly I just felt like crap.

And that is when I hit "rock bottom" I have to change. Even as I sit here typing this my jeans are cutting into my stomach and all I want to do is go change so I'm not having to be uncomfortable. Yesterday, my husband and I took measurements and pictures. Neither of us liked what we saw. Then we went to the gym. For the first time in a very long time I tracked my food.

I went to the grocery store where my 9 year old wanted nothing but fruit and veggies. So we loaded up (along with some sliced turkey, ham and cheese for sandwhiches) and had dinner at home. This was the first trip in months, maybe years that I did not walk out of that store carrying ice cream, soda and/or candy. The. first. time. It felt weird but I knew I was making a better impact on my kids. I used to have somewhat control of my soda. It would be, only when we ate out. But we ate out more. Only when we went to the store. But as it turns out, I leave the house often and nearly every store has its own soda cases. Fine, so one a day. Can you see where this is going? That one a day led to me buying a case. And I would have 1 to two cans a day with maybe a glass of water. I currently have no soda in the house.
I don't drink alcohol or coffee so soda or water is what I always drink.

So, lots of changes up ahead. But this time, I actually feel like I can make them!

OH! - gym time - 10 minute warm up on the elliptical, 30 - 40 minutes lifting, and 10 minutes on the row machine.

Have a great week everyone!
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    Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. And remember you didn't gain the weight overnight and you won't lose it overnight. It takes time, determination, motivation and support. You can get it all right here! If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. If I can help in anyway, feel free to reach out to me! You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon
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    Out of the mouths of babes, huh? Your family will be better for this. Have fun with it! Try new recipes an love the new healthy normal.
    327 days ago
    Great turnaround for both you and your family !!
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    U can do it
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    You can make the change! Good for you!
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