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9/12/19

Monday, December 09, 2019

i put my Christmas tree up yesterday.. it is the the first time in 7 years i have put one up... the first one since my daughter moved out...
i really don't like Christmas for a variety of reasons .. it is not happy.. it is not jolly.. it is filled with sadness and loss
but i am trying to move on.. and in the spirit of moving on i decided to decorate for xmas and try remembering the jolly , happy side of it all

i have a not the size of sussex in my belly and a vague sick feeling.. and i feel on the verge of tears.. i am guessing anxiety has kicked in i just don't know why ... well i mean i know it is to do with xmas but i don't know why it is making me so anxious

in other news i can ask why now i am not just blindly listening to the negative things in my head .. i am questioning them and arguing my point
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  • SWEETENUFGILL
    Well done for taking the action to get a Xmas tree up. I'm in the opposite place this year - for the first time ever I don't feel like decorating at all!
    179 days ago
  • RODILLA68
    I can totally relate; the season is not joyful for everyone
    179 days ago
  • DMEYER4
    emoticon it is great you overcame your decision not to decorate for Christmas. maybe it will get easier
    179 days ago
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