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Saturday, December 14, 2019

I was very busy away from home yesterday. Now that is very unusual for me- I am a retired and happily staying at home Grandma! But it was 74 degrees yesterday, sun was shining and husband was home. So I dragged him shopping, then we had a birthday party. This was after a morning of house cleaning. Now the good news is that I have more energy since starting SparkPeople. The bad news is that I bought a bunch of a Christmas candy without even thinking twice about how I was trying to change my life! Lifelong habits are hard to break! I was buying all of the Christmas candy I have purchased for my whole life, came home and remembered that I hadn’t blogged all day! And I read some mail from my SparkFriends and realized that my “old” me had been inhabiting my mind all day! And I fell apart. I cried and told myself that I was back to my old me-two and a half months of working on changing me and trying to reduce my sugar and white flour cravings and poof! The scary thing is that I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT IT! I just fell into old Christmas shopping patterns without a thought. Oh well, at least I remembered to check in and it all came flooding back. I wonder now if thought patterns ever really change. I always have to be on guard against our old thought patterns sliding back in. Sigh! But thank you SparkPeople for being there to remind me of what I am trying to do.
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    I've been doing the same thing! The good news is...you realize it! It may be that you didn't realize it until later but you did realize it! Kudos to you for doing just that!
    230 days ago
    Be kind to yourself. It is ok and as someone else said it is part of the journey. You can give the candy away (I would still have a little of your favorite) or maybe freeze and just have a bit as a treat once in a while.
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    233 days ago
    I understand all too well.
    233 days ago
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    It seems to me, that if we make a good choice, we are more likely to make another good choice, and if we make a bad choice, we are more likely to make another bad choice, so the key is, to make a good choice as often and as early as possible. If you've made a bad choice, make the next choice good.

    233 days ago
    The ruts in the road of OLD ME thinking are deep. You made the purchases out of that old habit pattern. Your new habit pattern kicked in as soon as you logged on to SP. I’d call that a successful change in behavior. Donate the candy to charity.
    233 days ago
    It takes time and work to build new habits
    233 days ago
    Yes, for sure old thoughts and patterns can come back! BUT the key is NOW you know you're not powerless. NOW you know you have to be aware, alert and have the tools in your coping box ready to use and USE 'em.

    I have been a sparker for going on 10 hrs. There are STILL times when temptation will strike, but after lots of practice, I know I'm stronger than those urges. Keep my hands and my mind busy till the urge, the distraction is out of my thoughts.

    I say to myself, "I am choosing not to (eat or do) fill in the blank, and that empowers me. I am not depriving myself, I am POWERFULLY CHOOSING not to eat or do fill in the blank.

    Hope that helps. And BTW, following the BLE guidelines is VERY helpful. Susan Pierce Thompson really KNOWS what's she's preaching because she is DOING it, has struggles like all of us and so has wise advice to offer.
    233 days ago
  • LEARN211
    Going back to old habits is part of the journey. What makes this time different is your getting up and walking away from the Christmas candy.
    233 days ago
    Oh how those thoughts cause damage don't they. But you can change them- it takes time, persistence, and taking it one day at a time. I have had to change mine and still working on it - but I am taking it one day at a time.

    For me when I leave the house before opening the door and going out I stop and tell myself 'Today is going to be a special day as I am going to be 100% on my food plan so I am going to be aware of all places I go to today that involves food - I will by pass all not my foods and just work on having a great day.

    Have you considered trying the program I am on - I know you have been following it - come to my sparkpage and look for the group No Sugar No Flour Using BLE Guidelines - read the info threats before joining the group - if you are really interested in doing no sugar no flour this is the program to follow but read the info on the group first - you can do it I know you can

    233 days ago
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