It Takes all Kinds
Sunday, December 22, 2019
I just was reading two blogs by WATERMELEN....voted popular blog post for today, and with reason. She presents some good thoughts about the dubious wisdom of pushing your body harder than it was meant to go - pushing to the point where injury occurs. I have been really struggling with myself...being here on Spark and following the food plan and being absolutely unable to exercise...even one tiny bit. I have discussed this with INDYGIRL and I think that there MUST be something I can do. One at a time I think of an exercise I've done in the past and no, it involves moving my ankles. No can do. It involves putting small stress on my shoulders. No can do. How about wall pushups.?..no, can't bend my wrists or put weight on my elbows...can't move my hips in certain ways. Can't bend my spine or turn my head/neck...LORD!! This is a TRAIN WRECK!
I am finding it hard being here.
But maybe my presence here will give a voice to the silent minority among us who struggle with chronic illness, mind bending pain. I speak for those with courage like my friend Linda, who has been sick with RA since early childhood...who still tries to move and exercise when she has scarcely one functional joint. I have "only" been diagnosed for 14 years. (REALLY???? time flies) but have damage almost as severe as she does. I thank God for the memories I have of my youth with a body that could still move and get strong when I asked it to. But those memories hurt me too...I think of whizzing down the paved 17 mile long path in NY where we used to live,...on roller blades, with wind in my hair, feeling like I could conquer the world.
Being here among you, makes me both sad and encouraged. In the RAD Sufferers team I lead, I hear the desperation and the pain that we all face there. I see the courage of others who refuse to succumb to weakness and pain. And I see the pain of those who have to finally come to the understanding that exercising is almost impossible and that they must then find other ways of helping themselves stay alive. These are some of the STRONGEST people i know. They may not be able to lift 5 lbs but they get through day after day of disability and pain that I hope the rest of you never have to face. And they care. They share with the rest of us, their love and concern and prayers for our benefit.
There are all kinds of strength.
There are all kinds of tenacity.
There are all kinds of courage.