Saturday, December 28, 2019
FOCUS is my word of the year. I am inspired by my friend OHANAMAMA. She asked me to think of a word that prompted me to create goals for myself for the year 2020.
I chose FOCUS because I have been so discombobulated this past year. Granted, I was recovering from rotator cuff and bicep reattachment surgeries, and spent most of the beginning of the year sitting. Just sitting there getting fat and depressed. It was the beginning of April before I was completely done with physical therapy. It was deep summer before I could really get fully in the swing of things.
In my head, I've felt like everything is a blur. My thoughts have been curtained by confusion and I could not for the life of me understand, focus, or remember anything. This past year has been the worst year for me as far as focusing goes.
I need to FOCUS on weight loss, organization, memory, happiness, and all that makes me ME.
Medication, I know, is a big part of my fog. I have to take meds for nerve pain and that does create a sleepiness that I absolutely hate. Without the meds, I am in too much pain to do much at all, and I still drop the ball because I am in pain. Either way, FOCUS has been difficult and coveted.
With a goal, I need a clear plan. No goal is worth a dime if you don't have a plan. My first step is to get my new planner fixed and ready for everyday tasks. The second step is to decide what other things need my FOCUS. Thirdly, I need to get those tasks written down (because clearly I cannot leave those tasks naked and vulnerable to my forgetfulness). Finally, I need to implement my plan daily, and track it somehow.
Today, I am prepping my planner. I worked on it yesterday as well. I have to write down everything, like daily chores in the first section of my day for two reasons: 1- to remember to do them and 2 - to have a feeling of accomplishment when those things get done. The second section of my day is the "meat" of the day. This section is dedicated to other things like appointments, other stuff that creeps up into my day, shopping, artsy time for me, etc. The third day is for evenings and notes. The fourth is a meal planning portion. And this part is really the reason I jumped back on the Erin Condren planner train again. This little section is perfectly labeled and ready to go. I just have to add in the meals. It's genius, really.
The second step to FOCUS is getting all those things I need to focus on listed. If I don't list these things they are lost to the abyss of my mind. OH! Did I mention I have ADD? Yep. I do. And meds are terrible for my head. I think they work for some, but for me, they don't work. So I go on my own. And that is a war, let me tell you. Back to my thoughts. Things I want to FOCUS on:
-fitness (not Arnold but also not Jabba) I got boxing gloves for Christmas and I have a heavy bag. Gonna use that sucker. Treadmill time. Flexibility exercises.
-nutrition (cleaner eating)
-portion control (because clearly I am out of control)
-organizing (really just staying that way, on top of things as they come)
-actually doing things I mean to do in a day (like baking that pie I promised hubs weeks ago)
-reading books I already have instead of buying a crate of new ones
-spending a lot less time on social media
-spending more time tracking my food and spending
-spending less money
-doing more artsy things
-actually writing stories, not just thinking about those stories
-actively seeking joy. This one is a hard one. Family drama is a monster that sucks me into it's nightmarish hole. I must fight it with purpose.
So that's a mighty big list. But it's a big year. And I really believe in my heart of hearts that this is possible.
Okay, third step was writing all that down and it's done now.
Fourth step is tracking all this intention. I have a planner for smaller things like water, exercise, nutrition, and top 3 things to focus on daily. That's going to be very helpful. My planner planner - my bible for the day - will have my other things. The little planner will be on the kitchen counter and my big book will be on my desk. Little planner is for the kitchen things. Big planner for the big things. Makes sense to me.
Things I have to use up: pens, pencils, papers, crafty supplies, books, etc. These things I will use and most won't get replaced. I have soooooooo many stamp sets, I don't even remember what all I have. I actually have to look before I shop. Also, that's because for almost a year, I wasn't able to use my stamps and other craft stuff. I had forgotten about some of it. But yeah, I also have too much.
I have an easel I need to use daily. There's a paining on there I haven't finished. It's been a work in progress since summer.
I have several video games to finish. Again, I wasn't able, but now I can in moderation. Repetitive motions are not my friend so I have to go easy on the button mashing. Which is hard, because I get so crazy and jump up and down and mash buttons like crazy.
Well, that's what I have for now. Oh! New recipes. I want to FOCUS on that more, too.
Okay. That might actually be all of my FOCUS thoughts. For now.
P.S. I thought of two more things: My German lessons and my guitar lessons. Geez my brain!
P.P.S. Sending out greeting cards on time.