Saturday, January 04, 2020
I joined spark people years ago, it helped me lose almost 50lbs... Through the years, I did really good... But then in my late 20s and now early 30s, I have fallen into a pit of my Old habits resurfacing with a vengeance. I feel like I've lost all my good habits, my motivation, and overall drive to even "try". So here I am, going to try again. I believe some people can do things on their own, I unfortunately cannot. I've crept up slowly to 165, my starting weight from when I was 16.. My goal weight is drastically different now: 130-135 is where I Need to be. Since then, I've graduated high school and college, Joined the military, got married, and raised a family of foster babies. I've started running marathons and try to keep active and motivated. But my eating habits (and hate to say it, drinking habits) have destroy most progress, so I need to readjust, make a change. I plan to keep myself accountable through blogs again. Devote myself to self care and get back on track to a healthy lifestyle. Genetically, I'm at risk for being heavy by default, diabetes and stroke. I do not want that life for me. So here we are again SparkPeople, you helped before, you can help again. I'm disappointed with myself as of now, but hopeful that I can turn it around again. I am a binger, bad, Recovered ED (on all ends), ive struggled with maintaining my weight my whole life, what I know now is depression, and I yo-yo diet... There is a long road ahead. But I want to do it safely, motivated, and effectively. Welcome to my page. I hope to those who read, can find peace in the fact they are not alone and that the struggle is indeed real. I know I will. My intent is to be as real as possible with my journey.. Journaling helps me cope and stay on track. Best to you. Best to me. Here we go.