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Saturday, January 04, 2020

I joined spark people years ago, it helped me lose almost 50lbs... Through the years, I did really good... But then in my late 20s and now early 30s, I have fallen into a pit of my Old habits resurfacing with a vengeance. I feel like I've lost all my good habits, my motivation, and overall drive to even "try". So here I am, going to try again. I believe some people can do things on their own, I unfortunately cannot. I've crept up slowly to 165, my starting weight from when I was 16.. My goal weight is drastically different now: 130-135 is where I Need to be. Since then, I've graduated high school and college, Joined the military, got married, and raised a family of foster babies. I've started running marathons and try to keep active and motivated. But my eating habits (and hate to say it, drinking habits) have destroy most progress, so I need to readjust, make a change. I plan to keep myself accountable through blogs again. Devote myself to self care and get back on track to a healthy lifestyle. Genetically, I'm at risk for being heavy by default, diabetes and stroke. I do not want that life for me. So here we are again SparkPeople, you helped before, you can help again. I'm disappointed with myself as of now, but hopeful that I can turn it around again. I am a binger, bad, Recovered ED (on all ends), ive struggled with maintaining my weight my whole life, what I know now is depression, and I yo-yo diet... There is a long road ahead. But I want to do it safely, motivated, and effectively. Welcome to my page. I hope to those who read, can find peace in the fact they are not alone and that the struggle is indeed real. I know I will. My intent is to be as real as possible with my journey.. Journaling helps me cope and stay on track. Best to you. Best to me. Here we go.
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  • DWROBERGE
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    34 days ago
  • PATRICIAANN46
    emoticon You have taken the first step by coming back to a program which brought you success in the past. This site has so much to offer in so many ways, but I have found that the sharing between members of what has worked for them and the friendships that form are one of the strongest supports available.
    I welcome you back and want you to know that I am here if you need anything. I definitely don't claim to know everything, but I will help where I can.

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    Patti
    45 days ago
  • FAIRVIEWBONNIE
    I have found a joy in being back with Spark. It should for you too. Just do not break the daily logging. We need to stay connected.
    46 days ago
  • RHOOK20047
    Welcome back to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome back and get active on this site. emoticon
    46 days ago
  • LAURALLANCE
    Glad you returned! Hang in there, it takes a while for good habits to stick! You've got this!!!
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    46 days ago
  • VHAYES04
    I’ve recently started bullet journaling. I’ve journaled off and on but this looks interesting!
    46 days ago
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