Monday, January 06, 2020
2019 was an intriguing year for sure. I've been away from home a year and 4 months. Survived living with my fiance and sister in law. Am going back to school and laid my parents to rest before my 33rd birthday. I've had my new kidney for 2 years this June. Plenty to be proud and thankful for I know.
I'm not complaining simply reflecting and wondering where to go from here. I've no one to ask for guidance anymore. My brothers' experiences have been different from mine and they are 16 years older. I'm nervous about that next step. I know I can either keep still and wonder or take that step and see where it goes.
I know I want to finish school. I know I want a job in the medical field with good insurance. I know my fiance wants a family that I'm willing to attempt to give.
Yet I don't know if I'm being selfish or if it's just grief talking knowing I could lose anything I work for or accomplish.