All Pain; No Gain
Sunday, January 12, 2020
The title of this blog does not refer to the "pain" of eating to lose weight. It refers to the severe chronic pain i live with. "No gain" means I am not gaining weight. YAY!
I haven't blogged for a few days. Actually I did post a blog but it ended up being all about the pain I'm dealing with and I decided that no one probably wants to hear me whine; so I deleted the blog.
I will say this though, with pain and fatigue, by the time dinner time arrives I can't even face the thought of eating, let alone preparing anything. So in the past two days, I tried to make lunch my main meal...dinner is often a protein shake. And with that being dinner, it means that half a sandwich is not sufficient for lunch.
I have not really felt like eating and I know that is because of pain.
Anyway... I've now lost 40 lbs total so am pretty happy about that. Since Nov 1st, when I started working with Beth, I've lost 17 lbs. I'm losing weight at about the same rate that I was when I followed Spark's food plan and was exercising daily. So that shows you, it IS possible to lose weight if you can't do any significant exercise. Of course, being completely sedentary, it probably also includes some muscle loss and that is not preferable.
So, what is good? God. He is always good and I treasure every gift he's given me. Friends are good. I don't really have many (any) friends in real life. They are all too busy to be a friend, but I DO have lots of online friends. I thank God for the gift of the internet and for my computer and kindle and Android phone that allows me some social and creative outlet. My dad is good. He is my best friend and even at 80 is able to help me a lot. My daughter is good...she has her struggles but I'm proud of how she is pushing through the difficulties and is holding down a good job and a relationship.
The minute self pity sneaks in, I try to move to a posture of gratitude in my spirit. I could have been born in a third world country and have no relief at all...from a recliner, a bed, or a wheelchair. I cannot imagine sleeping on the hard ground with the pain that comes from this disease. So thank you Lord. Thank you!
So maybe it is not "ALL" pain.
But certainly enough.