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Hope Deferred

Friday, February 07, 2020

King Solomon said "Hope deferred makes the heart sick"? That is undeniably true. And yet we must persist and keep hoping without losing hope. Every time we step on the scale we do so with hope...and there are times, sometimes for weeks, where the scale will not budge in the direction we desire. But still we hope. I know some people lose faith in their ability to lose even a pound.....we encourage them to stand strong and keep the faith...even while we are fighting our own battles of that kind. That's what is so great about Spark People--that people who have been successful, share their wisdom with those who are struggling. And I have often been the recipient of such pearls, offered by those who have walked the path I am now walking. And there are others who are still very much in the thick of the battle and we stand next to them in the trenches and fight side by side, staying strong, if only so that we do not cause our fellow warriors to lose heart.

i have been selected today to be motivator of the day. I am extremely honored and am a bit perplexed. It maybe should be called "Motivatee of the Day" -- I have been so blessed by my friends here and their wisdom which has picked me up off the ground so many times and inspired me to fight yet another day.

Those who know me, know the extreme physical pain I am in. (I have 3 types of arthritis, auto immune diseases as well as OA). There are days when I can't get out of bed or make it to the kitchen to get a drink or something to eat. I have been blessed to lead a group of warriors who share diagnoses such as mine, here on Spark People. Sadly, the group has kind of fizzled out despite my efforts. I think fighting these illnesses takes all of people's energy and strength and it is too much to keep up with a team. But I have made many wonderful friendships from that team and we are friends now, even on Facebook.

Lately I have had no appetite and I think that is from the worsening of the pain I am enduring. I cannot motivate myself to make, even a microwave meal. I want to eat some more so my metabolism doesn't shut down. Today I am getting some groceries. That will open up some new possibilities for easy foods, ready made stuff. Maybe that will help. The other problem, aside from the difficulty in preparing the food, is that I just don't WANT to eat anything. Nothing appeals to me. INDYGIRL has given me some ideas of snack foods that are ready made and healthy. She says she does what I do and that is to eat small amounts of food all day long...snacking rather than dining. And sometimes will also have a frozen meal. That is exactly what I have been doing. Many times the only meal I will have is a drink called "Premier Protein" - they are shakes that taste really good and have 160 calories 1 gm of sugar and almost no fat. They also have vitamins and minerals in them.

If I walk 100 steps a day, it is a lot for me. I know I have gotten quite weak and that is not good especially with the major surgeries I have in front of me. I just cannot face the prospect of walking any more because it just hurts too much even to stand up. I've been trying to exercise my legs while in my recliner. And doing isometrics--but even that is so hard with shoulders and elbows that are wrecked as well. It is what it is. What scares me is not what is but what will be. But that is in God's hands and he will get me through it.

God bless each of you who voted to make me motivator of the day. I am bemused...and honored.
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    You are a generous motivator. You purposely strengthen others motivation all the while struggling through pain daily just to continue yourself. You know the depths but highlight the greater good around us in Him every day.

    There are many achievements on this journey that we all celebrate. They are accomplishments. Your greatest accomplishment is that you are still here. You are further down the path on this journey than I am. I look to your reports on entering Onederland and look for hope and a way to quiet my own fears at that stage of the journey. You can see ahead on the path and around the curve and the view must be magnificent. If you can do this, it makes me believe than I can too.
    226 days ago
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    Cynthia,you're right God will get you through it! emoticon
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    Have a Blessed Day! emoticon
    226 days ago
    Have a wonderful day and weekend
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  • JUDITH316
    Haven't been here for awhile but reading your blog and being reminded that in spite of adversity in your life you Keep on pushing thru. Indeed you are a perfect example of perseverence and are such an inspiration to us all. I am so sorry you are battling so much pain in your body. My prayers are with you always that the Lord will bring healing in your body and bring you strength!

    Sending you Big Hugs, Love & Prayers! May your weekend be filled with God's Abundant Blessings.. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    226 days ago
  • EISSA7
    Even thru adversity, YOU show up...that in itself, IS motivating! emoticon
    226 days ago
    Hope and faith are keys to winning the weight battle. You are a perfect example of commitment and perseverance and I have faith in you 😊🙏. Ask and ye shall receive. God is listening 🙏🙌. Blessings for a wonderful weekend 🙏😇
    226 days ago
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