Dear Self - DO NOT STEP ON THE SCALE
Wednesday, February 12, 2020
Right now I'm avoiding one of my biggest traps that I need to sidestep: weighing myself too often. I have been on my weight loss journey for years, learning all sorts of diet plans and workouts and nutrition, etc. At this point, I feel like I've tried everything. And finally, using Eat to Live, I feel like I've found what works for ME and best fits my lifestyle and beliefs about nutrition. My clothes feel better, I'm loving my food - things are great. So obviously I want to step on the scale and see it go down!
THAT'S my problem. No matter how much I've learned about all the many, many factors that affect what a scale says, and no matter what I've learned about how you CAN have lost fat and it doesn't reflect on the weight shown on the scale - I STILL rely TOO MUCH on that scale to validate me. So every day I want to step on that scale and look for a loss. That sudden thrill of seeing the numbers go down to validate what I'm doing. But then what happens when the numbers don't reflect my lifestyle changes? I get bummed, I feel disappointed, I worry I'm eating too much and cut back and then go on a binge because I'm not eating enough, I feel like I'm wasting my time. No pep talk of "it's probably water weight" or "you're bloated from your workout" or "it's hormones, move on" talks me out of it. I don't get back on the horse - because what do you do when you feel like you never fell off the horse but it doesn't show on the scale?
This time, I'm doing it different. This time, I'm refusing to step on the scale more than once a month. Because I realized yesterday: the thrill of seeing a lower number on the scale is all I want. I don't care how small the number is, I just like to see that the number has gone down. If that means weighing myself once a month, then that's fine. As long as I know that I'm eating healthy and following my plan and getting in lots of whole foods and fruits and veggies, and my mood and energy levels are up, then I know that I'm successfully creating a sustainable lifestyle while filling my body with good stuff. At my size - morbidly obese at 210LBS (but I was 214LB last month!) at 4'11" I have a long way to go, but for the first time in a long, long, long time I feel real hope that I've found something that works for me that is going to help me get the lifestyle I want: active without pain, and a happier brighter future.
Scale - you are not going to bring me down this time.