Discouraged and Amazed
Thursday, February 13, 2020
I woke up this AM with a heavy heart. I had the terrible feeling of failure. I decided I wouldn't weigh myself. I couldn't face being confronted by my failure. I slept some more in my recliner...and when I woke, I went into the bathroom and I thought..."well, let me just check the scale.' and i breathed a prayer to God, "Please don't let me weigh more than yesterday." (195) I stepped up and waited for the numbers to settle...192.6!! REALLY?? How can that be? I give up trying to understand my body or this machine. It is not tied to any kind of logic. But for today, I will accept its gift.