It had to be said
Friday, February 21, 2020
I answered The Worker Friend[?]'s last email in the end. I was so angry that I chose not to reply initially as I wanted to process what I was feeling. After some nine hours the absolute rage I was feeling had abated somewhat. I was still angry but calm. I'd got to the kernel of my anger if you get what I mean. So I replied. Frankly I didn't pull any punches and laid it on the line. I was pretty bloody blunt too - I've gone beyond nicey nicey pussy footing around. So far he hasn't responded.
We've had minor squabbles in the past but only one real blow out. We didn't speak for a while but it was gradually resolved after I sent him a birthday greeting - it just felt odd not to. Ironically, it is a little over a week until his birthday but if it hasn't been resolved beforehand, I won't be sending him any birthday wishes this year. Of course all this is going to cause logistical problems. I still have stuff in his loft. All his bloody tools are still here. How we'll sort that out if there is no resolution I don't know.
I truly am my mother's daughter. Easy going mostly. You can push me so far though and then that's it - end of. There's been many times when he's hurt or angered me. Times when he's let me down - mostly by betraying my trust. Because after all these years, he doesn't actually 'know' me. I do know him though. I know that what really triggered him was the friend who lets him down regarding repayment. But bollocks - that isn't me and I will not take the flack. The worst of it all in a way is I just don't give a flying one any more.