what are you carrying?
Monday, February 24, 2020
What are you carrying that you can let go of?
Today, I panicked because in the lighting in my living room, my face was darker than my neck. This is a cardinal rule, a makeup no-no. My husband told me I’m beautiful and I look fine and he thinks it’s just the lighting making it weird. But, doesn’t he know women will secretly make fun of me if it doesn’t match?! To which he so casually replied, so what?
So what! But, I just told you someone may think something bad about me. And he said, it doesn’t matter what they think: it matters what I think and what you think.
I carry with me, a lot of “anticipated” negative thoughts. Someone will tease me for my big hair clips, my too-dark foundation, my blue eyeliner, my big butt in those pants, the way I laugh, how I like cheesy jokes, the weight I’ve gained, the clothes I like and wear - I worry about it all!
Why? That isn’t mine to carry. My job in life is to be happy and a good person.
What are you carrying that you can get go of?