back after a while
Tuesday, February 25, 2020
Here I am. Back on spark after seeing the highest number I've ever seen on a scale(280lbs).
2019 was wierd. had a wonderfull cruise from Tokyo to Vancouver BC, found a new job after searching for a few years, broke a leg (tibial plateau fracture) wich required surgery and 6 screws, did my rehab and started walking again.
Unfortunately, my right knee (who had been giving me a hard time in the last few years) decided that having to be the sole supporter of my body for 6 weeks, had had enough. after rehabilitation of my left leg, I couldn't really walk because of it. For whatever reason, this sent me into a self pity downward spin.
That is the weird part. I have had so much worst in my life. Why would this be such a drama. I will get knee replacement surgery and it will be fixed why would it affect me that much? Plus I love the new job so no reason to feel so bad.
I haven't solved that mystery yet. but now I am getting back on the horse, willing to make the changes that will last. That is why I am back here. I realise that every time I get away from here, I gain weight. I should always be here. Even more when I don't feel that good about myself. It would keep me from gaining so much.
Since I can't walk my 10000 steps a day for now, I will have to concentrate more on my food intake and do some aerobics on chair. But I think that if I can lose a bit of weight each week by eating better, it will be enough. When I get my leg back or when summer arrives and I can use the pool, I will just lose faster. I realise that focusing on exercise is good but if I can't exercise for whatever reason, and I don't have the food part under control, I gain weight. So better get the food part in check.