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Wednesday, March 04, 2020

Blah day. Nothing especially wrong just blahs. I am tempted to eat away the boredom & blahs but I am not going backwards. I can't.
I want to be great & better & awesome at everything but sometimes you just get the blahs. I am going for a walk later, I am meeting my good friend later. I will make & eat a healthy dinner and it will be ok.
Sometimes you just have to walk through the blahs while staying the course. And it's hard. Not gonna lie. I want to eat junk & hibernate, but I have goals. I have so many reasons to get healthier. I don't want to hate my behaviors afterwards.
I almost said hate myself, but that's not true. I never hate myself after I overeat. Overeating has always been about trying to take care of myself. Trying to feel better when things just don't go right. Getting a self provided mood boost when there is no one else to cheer me up. Food did it.
It was the fastest, cheapest, most efficient way to be temporarily happier.
But I don't want to be so temporarily happy any more. I want to be chronically happy. I won't demonize food as the villain in my life. It has been a source of friendly connections & joy & fun. The way I have used food hasn't been the healthiest and I am making a better relationship with it. It's been a handy crutch, but I need to learn to walk more steady without it.
So today I'm just going to sit with the blahs. I am going to eat well, exercise, socialize & try to be chronically happier without my crutch.
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    This is SO key!
    109 days ago

    Keep on Keeping on!

    Make today the greatest day of your life!
    Until tomorrow!

    If you are one of those people who believe that hard work and honesty alone will bring riches-perish the thought; because it's not true. Riches, when they come in huge quantities, are never the result of hard work. Riches come if they come at all, in response to definite demands, based upon the application of definite principles, and not by chance or luck.
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    238 days ago
    I too have had a blah day. Your positive attitude is very much appreciated. Thank you
    238 days ago
    emoticon blog emoticon Stay focused on your fitness and weight management goals and you will have continued success. SPark ON! emoticon
    238 days ago
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