I remember when I was a very young girl and I would tell my mom that I was bored, she would tell me that her father used to tell her to "go bang her head against the wall" LOL. I've also heard the very wise, "go play in traffic" LOL.
As an adult, sure, I have long days, but not too many are truly what I would call boring. Boring to me as a seasoned adult means peaceful. Not the usual stress and strain. I sort of LIKE "boring".
These are not boring times, though. My husband has shut down the office as advised by the powers that be in New York. We don't have the luxury or opportunity to "work from home".... and it will hurt us. But I have decided to make this period in time where we are forced to isolate, a time of deep emotional and physical healing. I am worried about many things, as we all are. Yet I want to tell my body, "it is well with my soul".
I'm a little embarrassed to share this, but yesterday one of the knuckles on my right hand was swollen and red and I could only close my hand halfway (today is much better). I looked at my hand with a crazily deep amount of compassion that came from nowhere. I gave my knuckle a little kiss, like a Mama would kiss the hurt knee of her child. Something inside me learned what I needed, as I journey on with this RA diagnosis. I need to love my body. I need to love even the hurting parts rather than fearing them. I have been so afraid.
I had hated and been afraid of my body for most of my life, feeding it to shut up my damaged spirit. It is a miracle, how far I have come these past couple of years. It is amazing to want to LOVE the same body that has literally turned against me, since RA is an auto immune disorder where the body is essentially fighting itself.
We all have a war within us, I think. We can fight the war with blame and judgment and self hatred. We can fight the war with love and peace and compassion. Either way, we are WARRIORS. For me, the blame and judgment and self hatred did not give me victory.
Love, peace, compassion.
That is the trifecta I'm betting my life on. Change your thoughts, and change your life.