the new normal
Saturday, April 04, 2020
“in the rush to return to normal, use this time to consider which parts of normal are worth rushing back to” - Dave Hollis
I’ve been struggling as I imagine most of you have, too. I work in a loan center at a bank and it’s been incredibly hectic. I’m working to process home equity, auto, and personal loans. Im taking calls listening to people who have been laid off, had hours cut, and cannot make their payments. My desire to want to help and make things easier for people has made this even harder. I hold onto other people’s pain.
I keep dreaming about “normal” again. But then I have anxiety...will I actually feel safe being in the public again? Our Governor declared the state as “shelter in place” and we are only allowed to leave for life sustaining reasons. Now it’s been recommended to wear masks outside the house. It’s spiked my anxiety even more.
You see it on the news. It’s on the radio. Every post on social media is about the virus. Stories of healthy people passing away. Businesses unsure if they will make it through. Friends who cannot make their mortgage payments. Will I get sick? If I do, will I be okay? Would I die? Will the world feel empty without local restaurants and businesses? My anxiety has led to some not so healthy coping mechanisms. I’m drinking wine a lot. I’m not eating foods that make me feel good. I’m not as active.
So now I am trying to focus on what I want my new normal to look like. What can I do during this slowness, this isolation, to make that vision become a reality? What can I control in a situation that is so unknown? What am I capable of? Anxiety is natural and to be expected. Finding peace and positivity is a purposeful action I plan to guide me into my new normal.