I am so sorry to hear this sad news. I can say I understand the pain of your loss. Know that you are not alone unless you truly want to be which is understandable. Indeed when you are ready you will find you are never lost but full of memories and love that will last forever. May you find your peace in time.
My condolences; so sorry for your loss. It's a really hard time. Lighting candles for you and her. Reach out to everyone you can for support, because it's extra hard right now, in these times. We are here for you. There's a team on spark about loss of loved one, that may offer some solace at some point, sooner or later: https://www.sparkpeople.com/myspark /groups_individual.asp?gid=1711 1