Wednesday, April 29, 2020
Well, in my last post I shared that I'd lost 50 lbs--and I did. But ever since then I've moved back and forth between 185 and 188. Mostly though I've been parked at 186 (the 50lb lost weight). Beth suggested that I had not been eating enough because mostly i'd been below 1200 calories. SO for the past two days I've been eating more--between 1500-1600 calories. I haven't weighed myself yet today but yesterday was still parked.
Now, what's the trouble if I haven't regained weight?
It is my attitude. I've been eating whatever I want....which generally means eating very little in the daytime and eating the house at night. Now I have been still tracking...and actually that has been a comfort because I just ate over 600 calories tonight and was sure I'd eaten myself to over 2000 calories. But no..my daytime deficit saved me. 1530 calories.
So I've been tracking...but halfheartedly. I have not been doing any other Spark-activities other than spinning the wheel. Does that matter? Yeah, it does. I have been neither getting nor giving any support. I have not blogged to look inside my heart and brain to see what is going on there. I have not been working on my goals with Beth. And that is the biggest area of concern. I don't want her to waste her time with me and I know she has some good advice that would benefit me if i would just put it into action.
so maybe my stationary weight is symbolic of a stasis of heart, mind and body. Time t break out of this shell I'm in and start stretching my wings. Time to soar!