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Wednesday, May 20, 2020

This year I am struggling. So many things factor in to the fact that I have lost my spark although I continue to fight to get it back. Sometimes I can go so well for a few weeks and then BOOM! I just stop, I lose it.

The struggle continues and in spite of a lot of physical challenges I have been having due to arthritis and injuries I won't give up. I can't. I remain positive that I will get back to my "old self" again and maybe with admitting it out loud and writing it down will help me get more inspired to stay focused and not slip back to old "bad habits"

I know what I have to do and every night I vow to do it, and I start the day off well and many of my intentions end up side tracked. I have to start making the time for me again as I have been too busy trying to do too much all at once.
Exercise got away from me and walking lately has been limited with a great deal of rain we have had.

Weather has now changed for the good, projects are winding down and there will be no excuses for me to not book time for me to back to my regular power walking and strength training. I need to get back to planning what meals I am going to cook rather than cook just anything as dinner time rolls around because then its usually something that is boxed or packaged as opposed to making from scratch.

More fruit is needed in my daily nutrition and I am going to make that my first new goal in a long list of goals that I need make for myself. Back to taking baby steps again and getting back on track. I can do this.
My health is most important to me and I refuse to let it go. Back to be refocused and energized. emoticon

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    53 days ago
  • BJAEGER307
    Susan, I agree with OfferItUp's comment. Maybe focus should be on a "new me" instead of an "old me". Life has changed and as much as we fight it, we must change too. Life throws us curves, but we have the power to bounce back if we so choose.

    Slow down, take things one step at a time. Didn't you do that with power walking? I'm sure you just couldn't jump right back into that. There would be consequences to pay if you did. Try and make each day count, and don't fret so much of what you feel you didn't do right, but what you feel you did do right. Can't do it all at once, cause you're only setting yourself up for failure and side tracking big time.

    Lots has gone on in your life of late, you're dealing with so much. Be proud of yourself for being able to cope with has gone on. You're a strong person, and a wonderful example to your family and us here on Spark. I wanna be able to get where you are with power walking, as I'm exhausted just walking the mile that I do with hubby, but I keep on plugging.

    Take care and know that I'm glad to have found you as a Sparkfriend. Wishing you all the best. emoticon

    53 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/21/2020 1:06:56 PM
    You know one thing that struck me as I read your blog - The Old Me, and getting back to it. I actually thought, maybe I need to get to a new me and stop trying to reach back. Perhaps that might help in your struggle as well as my own. When I first was on SparkPeople I was in my 40 and at my lightest weight as well as taking karate classes 4 to 5 times a week and working full time. I am now in my 60s and I have a few issues and I no longer live where I took those classes nor could I really do them. I loved how I was then but I can't be that anymore but I can be a really great Now Me. I don't know if this helps at all with your struggle but it made me think about the Old Me and the New Me and being friends with the Present day one.
    53 days ago
    I’m finding that older age is bringing some limitations along with it. Among the limitations is this: either the days are getting shorter or I’m getting a lot slower because I can’t seem to perform up to my expectations. I may have quite the list of things to accomplish on any given day but when the day is done, very few of the things on my list actually get done. So, I’m now learning to par down my expectations. I always feel good about those days spent seeing after my health first, so this has become my #1 priority. If anything else gets done in a day, that’s frosting on the cake. It isn’t a matter of quitting or giving up. It’s more about working with what is and not worrying about what isn’t. It’s about getting real and doing the best I can with what I’ve got today and making peace with it. The Spark lives on! emoticon emoticon
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    54 days ago
    Good luck and thanks for the inspiration! Go to YouTube and search walk away the pounds...good videos to walk in your living room to...keep up the great work! Together we can be our best selves each day!
    54 days ago
  • ZRIE014
    agree with you
    54 days ago
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