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A shadow of darkness

Sunday, May 31, 2020

Good morning friends.. the sun is bright this morning.. shining through the window beckoning me .. looks warm and friendly, but the temps have dipped just a bit and there is a chill in the air.. but the sun is shining bright and is supposed to all day!

Yesterday was quite warm, low 80s, sunny and our pool still not ready.. but, it turns out the water is clearer than it appears, the issue is the orange tint that excess iron has created on the pool liner causing a shadow of darkness.. We spent a lot of energy trying to fix a problem, but we did not understand exactly what it was that needed fixing. At least we have discovered the root of the problem, so now we can fix it and move forward.

We are not 100% sure where this came from, but we did find several stones in the pool which is more than likely the catalyst. We have no idea how they got there. They are decorative stones that surround the pool and it would appear that they had to have been thrown onto the pool liner at some point.. they are way too heavy to have been picked up and carried by the birds.. perhaps the squirrels? Even that is a stretch... the logical conclusion is a person(s) did this..

Why would someone throw rocks into my pool? What possesses people to be destructive to someone else's property? The same thing that allows people to be unkind to each other or to themselves... a lack of self-love, a feeling of helplessness.

Every single day I see it, more often than I am comfortable with. People fighting with themselves, belittling their efforts.. and then one of two things happen, they give up and become targets for others, or they now become the aggressors. Random thoughts casting a shadow of darkness on what could otherwise be a joyful existence.

My heart aches when I see people feeling guilty or shame over food choices they've made or the decision to take a day off from exercise. Try as I may, I can not understand these feelings. And it seems like more and more people are talking like this.. is it because the fever is spreading? Or is it something else.

Sometimes I will see something and I want to comment, but I do not because I struggle for the "right words" that particular person needs to hear.. but then other times, I can't stop myself from responding with what I hope is a helpful encouraging word..

The words of Bonnie Raitt song are ringing in my mind this morning..

I can't make you love me, if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these final hours
I will lay down my heart and I'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'Cause I can't make you love me, if you don't..

Please step away from the mirror when singing these words.. you are worthy of love, you deserve love, we all do. Your heart can change, but you have to open it up in order for that to happen, which means there is some risk of heart involved, but there is also room for great growth!

Psalm 51:10 Create in me a clean heart, O God,
and renew a right[a] spirit within me

We watched the Rocket Launch yesterday, that was pretty awesome, a light in the current shadow of darkness that recent events have caused..

Tully time this morning, so intense workout is on the books, I will run a bit and I will watch mass live streaming and listen to Sean and David's harmonies to refresh my soul. Made my first instant pot banana cake yesterday, so I will sample a piece of that at some point.. not really sure what is going to be on the menu other than that at the moment the thought of food is not pleasant. Pool stuff to rid the ugly stains, then purchasing new closet doors for the dining room, to which we will add stain of our choosing, then a quest to find a sunset and some peace and hopefully some facetime with Ryder.. that ending can make any day worthwhile, my light in this shadow of darkness.


Have a great day.

So what other baby can look "tough" in a pineapple onesie??

My heart!!!

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    34 days ago
  • EISSA7
    Awwww....showing his teeny, weeny, little guns! LOL....so cute .... Glad that you finally got your pool issue figured out!
    34 days ago
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    34 days ago
    Amidst all the needless violence and destruction it was so uplifting to see the lift off (pun intended!) safely happening yesterday and today the docking. Fabulous.

    It is mind boggling to try and think about what the mind set of someone must be to be destructive. Just can’t do it. Just can’t imagine harming someone or property. **SIGH** Praying that some of the anger is released so things can regain some semblance of sanity!

    LOLOL! I was thinking the same thing . . . that intense look on his face and those closed little fists . . . looks tough, then you look @ the pineapple shirt! ADORBS!

    34 days ago

    Sorry the decorative stones found their way into your pool..

    Maybe, just maybe the someone that put the stones in the pool ...
    did NOT have malicious intent but thought they would look pretty ..
    maybe they just wanted to see the splash..
    and just did not think it would cause a problem..

    Ever so glad you found the cause of your problem and now have answers to resolve the problem.
    and hopefully something like this will never happen to you again.

    Yes a beautiful sunny day.. but the breeze with the slightly lower temp today..
    leaves one just a tad chilly

    Pray your day is great and your week is even better.

    34 days ago
    Thanks cute pic
    35 days ago
    Thank you for this message. I needed to hear it.
    35 days ago
  • LAUREL2372
    This is such a special post and that baby is the cutest toughie on the block. :)
    35 days ago
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