I'm Going To Take A Break
Tuesday, June 02, 2020
As many of you know, I suffered a traumatic brain injury in a car accident in January. I've been doing lots of MRIs - 2 on the brain, one on the cervical spine and one on my shoulder. My brain MRI will be looked at by my NEW neurologist on the 10th of this month. Yes, in the middle of treatment, the old neurologist left the practice and they haven't hired a new one. The old neurologist told me to follow her to her regular practice (she was part time at the other practice) but her staff won't let me anywhere near her. (They refused to even take down my information or schedule an appointment.) Hubby and I found this to be totally unacceptable. I will send her a certified letter in the next couple of weeks. She may not even be aware of what is going on. Meanwhile, I had to start all over again with a new neurologist
I now have the radiology reports for all 4 MRIs. None of them look normal. Although the brain takes top priority, I did see an orthopedist yesterday to try some non invasive treatment for my shoulder. It is messed up. My neck is also messed up. The neurologist said that we will start with the brain and work from there. Meanwhile, the medical bills are piling up. The driver at fault was uninsured. Our state requires that all drivers carry uninsured motorist insurance so we are covered so far. Thank goodness! And...the fun continues.
Both hubby and my daughter have been so worried about me. I feel so blessed to have them in my life. I am having issues with my short term memory, word retrieval, processing, fatigue, pain and the list goes on. By 1:30 - 2:00pm in the afternoon, on a good day, my brain is exhausted and I'm forced to lay down and rest. I can't really describe what it's like when my brain does what I call fizzling out. Hubby sees it daily. My daughter (who was in my position about ten years ago) is my coach and talks me down when I panic or become frustrated. The two of them are a wonderful gift to me. We don't know yet what is permanent and what will heal. It is what it is. I can accept the reality of it or pretend it doesn't exist. Either way, it will still be there, like it or not.
Because of all of these issues, I will be taking a Spark break. I may pop in when I have the energy and wherewithal. I want to expend my energy doing things that will help me improve as much as possible. Please know that you will be missed. This will be different after almost 12 years of being very active on Spark People.