Sunday, June 14, 2020
It's been nearly 3 months since I have been at home due to the current pandemic. I am not one of those that like to be at home, because anyone that knows me, knows I am hard to make plans with, because I am constantly on the go. And, with OH opening up more, it makes me very excited.
Our convention schedule is now starting in August - hopefully! My BF has been more active on Ebay to make up for what he is unable to make at shows. (That's his full time job.) I am lucky to be able to still work from home. But, his state (IL) is still in phase 1 I believe, & OH is opening more things this week.
I haven't seen him in 3 months, & I think it is starting to get to both of us. I haven't seen my Mom longer than that. Nursing homes are not allowed visitors at all, unless the person is close to dying. I heard we can do window visits with my Mom, but after her debilitating stroke a few years back, that won't work. And, I can't Skype during works hours.
I think I have truly been depressed after 3/17. I don't like change. And, I don't admit depression easily. But, after doing a bit of self care the past 2 Sundays, I feel a lot better.
Last week, i walked a 5K for a virtual event I signed up for. Today, my goal was 2 miles. (3.1 miles is a 5k.) I did it! It's especially easy if your reward is breakfast afterwards. LOL. I liked saying hi to people as you walked by, & seeing puppies, too. And, it was easy to social distance early in the morning. But, it felt good to be out with just...me, myself, & I! It gave me time to clear my head for a bit.
As I sat there in the restaurant by myself today, I realized I needed to walk more than once a week, & go back to watching what I eat. It's not enough to just walk, because I am 50+ years old now.
So, tomorrow, I am hitting the "reset" button again. NOTHING fits right, & that muffin top is now a loaf.
If I can sit & play Animal Crossing for nearly 2 hours easily on my Switch, I can find time to walk.
Some additional stresses I am dealing with...my brother moved in (we don't talk, due to a falling out years ago), my niece/his daughter is moving out next month, & trying to take care of my soon to be 80 year old father who is hard of hearing & to deal with. This is all starting to take its toll. Especially when you adhere to the rules set forth by the state, & your niece does what she wants, & makes up her own rules to fit her situation. (Not my kid.)
But, maybe it's a good thing my brother moved back in. He seems to be a keto freak. Weight Watcher's Blue worked for me before this started. I am ok with not eating rice or making fried rice every weekend. I love thin bagels over regular ones. It's all about compromise.
After this weekend, I realized I hate staycations. But, our employer said we had to use 30% of it by 7/31. So, I was stuck. This week should be better, because more things open up in OH on the 19th. I will hopefully have a place to escape - the movie theater! And, fingers crossed I can take a trip to IL next month to see my BF.
Making plans to see him, definitely made me feel better...♥️