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Here I go again...

Thursday, June 25, 2020

Living life with PTSD, and other mental illnesses can sure be a roller coaster ride! Especially in the weight loss department! I recently had a bad.... episode with my PTSD, I was on track with my weight loss, I was doing my atomic habits, I was getting back in gear, and BAM! An unwanted hello from the past decides it needs to be dealt with, NOW. Fortunatley, I now have an awesome therapist who knows how to deal with this. We are still working on it, but I tend to eat and not realize it. My anxiety got so high I was going in circles from one thing to another, literal circles, and eating was in that circle of things I was doing. Took me a while to catch on, I could not figure out what was so wrong and why I was so fidgety. Anxiety!!

Anyway, I have put on few pounds in my midsection and now only a few pants fit and my yoga pants and that is NOT okay!! Tomorrow after I drop off the dog for grooming I'm going to work out. I'm going to start working out at least 5 times a week. Trying for 6, but 5 is good. I've got to cut out the sugar. Got to. My diabetes can't handle it, and it is not good for weight loss. Fraps only on Monday for therapy. My one treat for my hard emotional day. I'll have to give it up eventually, but even my therapist agrees, right now is not the time. I'm trying to do strength training, even just a little, on those days too. Every little bit counts!!

I have to start managing what I'm eating better, getting back to my shakes and eating Paleo. No more cookies or sweet treats other than my Monday Fraps. This is going to be difficult, I've developed quite the sweet tooth. But we have plenty of Powerade Zero in the house now (I don't drink much of it) and I got new water bottles that are strictly for water. I really like them. I have a cooler bottle that I put Crystal Light or unsweet tea in for when I need something with flavor and keeps them cool all day long. We prepped some chicken for salads and hamburger meat for eating however.

It seems like it is always something getting in the way. However, I will not give up. I will not give in. I will not back down. I will win this fight, for a fight it is. I may have lost a few battles along the way (they extra belly fat I'm now carrying) but I WILL win this war. Anything else is not an option. When I can think a little more clearly I'm going to come back with my game plan. A basic and simple one that anyone could follow. I'm not going to overdo it, I'm going to make it to where I can actually follow it. But right now, I'm going to go eat dinner with my family

I hope you have a Spark Tastic night!!

~Flea
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  • ASOBFALLS
    emoticon Start with the plan
    42 days ago
  • HMBROWN1
    I completely understand! I was doing great - diet and boot camp - feeling awesome. Then the lock down happened and I was stuck in a terrible depression - for months. No working out, back to crap food, not good! We can totally do this! I hope that you have a great day!
    43 days ago
  • LIS193
    emoticon emoticon emoticon
    43 days ago
  • RREDFORD5
    I'm with @SPICY23 and 1CRAZYDOG on this. You'll get it done. You know you can do it, you just have to cut it all to manageable chunks of time. You're all right. Love you! emoticon
    43 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Sweets are also my problem. I know that you have children and probably buy cookies and such for them. Maybe just buy them less often. I have had to do this. Otherwise, I would eat them everyday.
    43 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Sweets are also my problem. I know that you have children and probably buy cookies and such for them. Maybe just buy them less often. I have had to do this. Otherwise, I would eat them everyday.
    43 days ago
  • CHERI*ANN7
    Praying for us both to get back on track and see some progress!! We can do this with God's help!
    43 days ago
  • SPICY23
    emoticon Virtual Hugs. Be kind and gentle with yourself while you sort this out. You have identified many items that you might choose to target that will make a difference. I am especially glad that you said this: "I'm going to start working out at least 5 times a week. Trying for 6, but 5 is good." Yes, 5 is good; even 3 is good. Being OK with whatever you are able to do will serve you better.
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    Peace and Care
    44 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    My dear, hang tight. Be kind to yourself. HUGS
    44 days ago
  • SANDYWMS
    Hang in there. You can do it
    44 days ago
  • JUNEAU2010
    Sending hugs! I know how tough this is! I have a relative in hospice right now and not diving into trigger foods is SO hard...
    44 days ago
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