A lot can happen in nine or so months
Monday, July 13, 2020
It's been a LONG time since I last posted (November I think?) and that's been a result of a few things. I've definitely fallen off my game, was focusing on growing my business/consultancy, and enjoying being a newlywed. But the biggest distraction was, you may have guessed based on the title of this post--I had a baby!!
It is so crazy to me to think, looking back on my journey here on SP, that so much time over the past decade was me thinking that this would never happen. I am unbelievably blessed and grateful to have had a son, now a little over a month old, who is the absolute light of my and my husband's life. I was extremely anxious over the course of the pregnancy, so I didn't announce it and still haven't really talked about it with people because the anxiety hasn't really abated (especially now with current events).
However, I am proud of myself for doing, I think, a very decent job of taking care of myself during the pregnancy. I had a number of chronic conditions I had to manage, and because I started out overweight, I needed to make sure not to gain too much weight. I ended up actually losing weight until about the beginning of the third trimester and, by the time my son was born, had only gained about 11 pounds. A week after, I was 20 pounds lower than my pre-pregnancy weight, though I've since gained back about 10 pounds (I lost a lot of water weight and muscle because of some pretty terrible post-pregnancy complications, so I'm okay with having a little weight back on).
I am very fortunate that my husband is an extremely loving and engaged father, very much an equal (if not even more attentive) parent because it means we have some quality of life at the moment. We're just now hitting a bit of a groove and switching off so that each of us can take a nice walk and get fresh air and exercise. We've also been meal planning, which is really important to me especially because right after our son was born, I was ravenous and basically shoveling any nourishment into my mouth regardless of if it was edamame, three bowls of Cinnamon Toast Crunch, some ready made whatever from Trader Joe's. I was probably eating upwards of 3000 calories a day for about two weeks (again, I had some terrible pregnancy complications where I was in the hospital and starving for days at a time, so I don't begrudge myself for letting myself eat once I was able to).
So, now the recovery plan is to get leaner and stronger so I can really be there for my kid and husband. They both need cuddles and a strong mom to lift, to run around, to bounce the baby, etc. My arms and shoulders do feel stronger! But my endurance and general well-being could be a lot better, as could my core and back. I've decided, in addition to walking, to subscribe to Peloton's home workouts (which include meditation!) and also introduce 16:8 intermittent fasting. Because I wake up so early now (husband does most of the night feedings, so I do the early morning shift so he can sleep in), I'm eating from 7am to 3pm and then going to bed around 8pm and waking up around 5am.
We'll see how this all shakes out. We have a newborn and my biggest priority is obviously him. So, I'm trying to just be graceful and patient with myself about weight loss/strengthening up. But I also know, the better I do about taking care of my health, the more dividends it will pay out and the more I can actually do with my child. I am so lucky to have him and want to show it by being fully present and healthy for him.