I had an awesome first appointment with my new Internal Medicine FNP-C!! It was like watching an episode of House, how she pieced things together and came up with what our next move would be for some of my issues. She still looked at my previous labs that I brought with me for my A1C's and looked skeptical that I'd ever had diabetes (both were in the normal range). But I told her point blank that it was when my general practitioner told me I didn't have diabetes any more that I knew I needed to find a new doctor (plus the whole foot thing). Diabetes doesn't go away. It is a progressive disease. But it can be managed. I told her about me having gastric bypass and that I stopped taking meds for diabetes after that. And that I have been for the most part able to control my diabetes with exercise and diet since then.
Speaking of Gastric Bypass. It is time to do a POUCH RESET!!! If you have had this surgery or know someone who has, you know what I'm talking about. If not, this is what it is, I'm going back to as if I had just had the surgery and am having all shakes and liquids. No sugar. No carbs, (thought I will be adding the luxury of putting fruit in my shakes because they taste horrible without them!!). It sounds like torture, I know, it sounds awful, but truly, a chocolate cherry "milkshake" for dinner is not all that bad. And now that I have been taught how to make a Chocolate Elvis (yum) I'll live. LOL. I have a watery one, that tastes like watered down cherry koolaid for when I need to have something but am not hungry. I have MIllie's Sipping Broth (comes in tea bags!) for when I am feeling hungry and need 'flavor' but have already had my 3 shakes for the day. I'll have tea, both hot and cold, and let myself have a touch of honey with the hot (lemon with cold), but not much, but most of the time I will have my tea without. Especially first thing in the morning. I'll probably have to order some more sipping broth (I LOVE that stuff, especially the Delight Pho!). So, anyway, that is what I'll be doing. I have to buy some more chocolate, but I think I have enough for this week... I have some coffee with espresso that I use to make my own fraps, they don't taste the best, but they are okay. I'm not really a breakfast person, but I've been working out in the morning, (except this morning, my appointment was EARLY), and that makes me hungry for a shake by breakfast time.
It may sound like overkill, but trust me, this is something that people with Gastric Bypass stomachs do when their stomachs have been stretched, and mine has. I have been hungrier and hungrier, and DH noticed that I am eating more. And I have. And I can't stand it. So light bulb went off this morning when I was talking to him, why not stop talking about doing it, and just shut up and do it? I could have used the excuse that I already ate breakfast, but I'm not going to. I'm going to start with lunch and go from there. This is usually a two week thing and then you wean yourself down. Week 3 eat dinner, Week 4 eat lunch and dinner and then you are back at your normal, a shake for breakfast and lunch and dinner are meals (or whatever your normal is, that is the way I prefer to do it, I love eggs, but I'd rather eat lunch and dinner foods!!). But, keeping to measuring and portioning my foods, and keeping to my meal plan. I have to eat basically Paleo. As few carbs as possible and basically just meat and veggies. I can totally do that, if I try.
I was doing good on Paleo. Then life happened, and I started emotionally eating and I gained back a lot of my hard work. Well, now I want to work hard to lose all that and then some. Since I have had Gastric Bypass, and if I remember my portions and am starting out on a pouch reset, it should be... not easy, but not as difficult, if I stay focused, to lose the weight.
I'm getting up at 0600 now to workout and to get used to getting up earlier before school starts so I'm not a 'Mombie' come school starting time. Plus I want to start having time to write in my new Write The Word journal "Cultivate Confidence", regular journal, SP and read the Bible. I want to get the Write The Word journal for my BFF, but this month is a tight month. Maybe next month. But anyway. I'll get up during school, an hour before my kids get up to work out, get them up get them ready, drive them to school (mask not mandatory on the buses, say what?), and then come home and do all of my writing, or do some of my writing while eating breakfast at the table... but that is a rather chaotic time, getting them ready for school usually is. We shall see. I'd like to do a 10 minute walk right after lunch too. If it is hot, then on the treadmill, but once it gets nice again, take the dog for a walk.
So my goal? It's a biggie! I want to be at my GOAL WEIGHT this time next year or before!!! I'm going to put my goal date as July 11 because I will remember that because it is my Friend-aversay with my BFF (next year will be 10 years!!)!! There. I have put it out there. I've set a date to it. I've said it and I can't take it back! I'm going to tell my bestie too!! I totally want to be at my goal weight in one year. I want to (hopefully this mess will be able and she and I will be able to plan a short vacay together!) see my bestie at my best weight! My goal weight really depends on my body. I'm not just going for skinny, I'm going for lean muscles too, so around 120-130 is where I want to be IF I can get there. I'm going to have a lot of loose skin, unfortunately, but DH has already promised me skin surgery for my stomach, which I'm thankful yet nervous about!! I knew it was going to happen, and that is my reward for making it to my goal, or one of them!! Skin surgery and a new wardrobe!!!! Not an expensive one, mind, but an actual put together wardrobe!!! Something me! Right now I'm getting things here and there that are me, but mostly I'm thrift store shopping (don't get me wrong, I do love thrifting) because I can't imagine paying full price for clothes that I'm hoping to shrink out of!!!!
So there you have it. My epiphany from this morning, my new one year (hopefully it won't take that long) goal, and here is how I am doing: DEPRESSED, but getting hopeful. one more week till the new meds start kicking in. I found myself listening to Don't Rain On My Parade by Barbra Streisand. It's a good pick me up song. DH said good, now build a playlist on that. So if you know of any good pick-me-up songs, put them in the comments. Doesn't have to be old school like Streisand. I listen to all kinds of music. Sometimes my 'LIked' playlist can be jarring going from genre to genre!!! LOL