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Feeling my feelings

Wednesday, July 15, 2020

I am sad.
Disappointed.
Angry.
Heartbroken.
I can not deny all of these feelings.
I could not even fall asleep that first night.
Mostly I am heartbroken for Patrick and his family as we have built this trip up to the hilt for months...not sure how Pat and Jean will break the news to their three wee ones.
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I think they’re going to tell them we will try again next year...hoping we will all be still here.
First thing my dear man and I did was look for another island to visit, but flights are few and far between (especially using our miles) and most have restrictions about Covid testing right before arriving, which may be a problem.
Plus we could do all the planning and then THAT island could shut us out.
The more we thought about it...do we really want to fly now?
Our flights were through NC or Miami.
Really?
I guess not.
We need to find an alternative superfantabulous way to celebrate the family.
Maybe rent a beach house with a pool within a few hours of here.
I’m spending my energies exploring that.
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You know me, ever the optimist...one way I get through horrible times is to think of all the people who have it much worse...with elders in nursing homes they can’t visit, with dead loved ones they can’t hold proper funerals for...the families who have lost multiple family members or jobs or houses...the hungry and the homeless...the list is endless.
So what...I can’t go on a vacation.
I’m dealing with it.
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  • LOSEDAPOUNDS
    So sorry you have to miss out on that vacation! I like you attitude. You let yourself feel the feelings and you also look on the bright side.
    21 days ago
  • DESIREE672
    A beach house with a pool sounds lovely. Good may come out of this.
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    22 days ago
  • BETHGILLIGAN
    I pray you find that vacation home that is waiting for your family!
    22 days ago
  • SWEETNEEY
    Yes, there could be worse things to be facing. I think the small ones will understand this Covid is a real revelation.
    23 days ago
  • _CYNDY55_
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    23 days ago
  • POLSKARENIA
    Yes, you WILL find an amazing alternative!
    23 days ago
  • LYNKIN
    A beach house with a pool sounds awesome! emoticon
    23 days ago
  • HIPPICHICK1
    Girlfriend, 2020 has been cancelled. Your trip, and my trip home to see my mom for her 85th birthday.
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    Better safe than sick. No body wants this virus. Stay safe. And you'll figure something out. You're a freaking genius!
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    25 days ago
  • __JC__
    keep venting
    25 days ago
  • THISTIME18
    We had to cancel our trip to the Upper Peninsula of Michigan next month for the same reasons. Not sure about quarantine restrictions and travel exposure. So, we're parked here for the summer and will hope we can visit friends next year. Sad, but true.

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    25 days ago
  • RUTHIEBEAR
    I know it must be so very disappointing. Maybe it is for the best for right now. Getting over the sadness and anger will be hard. But you have got so much good going for you. I like your positive thoughts. emoticon
    25 days ago
  • DEBVNE
    It’s HARD! Amen to feeling and honoring your feelings. Easy to tuck away, the thing is they WILL resurface later. Time away from others, extra time at home can mean time in our heads. Like ask me how I know, how any of us do. Sigh. I read once to consider our heads an unsafe neighborhood and never travel there alone. Yep. Not wrong, counterintuitive to feeling the feelings. Have an ugly cry, an amazing walk, whatever is a release for you. I tend to dive in and get after stuff. Planning the adventure for your family within COVID constraints will let your precious ones understand that time together, as a family, is what matters most. Memory making is the best. It fills our souls up for times such as this.

    Virtually wrapping you in a squeeze, and prayers. Good luck searching.
    Be well...
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    25 days ago
  • EDWARDS1411
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    26 days ago
  • ALEXSGIRL1
    hugs right attitude and spirit and i bet you find a great place to stay and make memories close to home
    26 days ago
  • LKWQUILTER
    Sending positive thought and prayers that you figure out an alternative vacation for all of y’all. It is just as important to you and some things are to others. I do understand that. ((HUGS))
    26 days ago
  • PHOENIX1949
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    26 days ago
  • TIZSLIM
    I felt kind of like this with the cancellation of the Scintillating at Sixty/Easter Weekend/plus Daughter's Birthday plans. I was so excited, counting down for a year and then poof - gone. And yeah, like you I figured it was nothing compared to what others have had to face. But as I said in one of my blogs recently, just because your neighbour's leg is broken, doesn't stop the boil on your bum from hurting.

    What has worked for me [I think] is to feel it, admit it, own it. I can't ever have that celebratory weekend. But in accepting that, I've come to realise how lucky I am to have family and friends that wanted to celebrate with me. And so I look forward to seeing them again soon.

    I hope you find some fanbloodytastic amazing alternative way of celebrating with your family and friends. Actually, you know what, I'm sure you will. You're that kind of person.
    26 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    So sorry! BUT I think you're taking a positive step looking @ places within a couple hrs. of where you're at to see if there might be a possibility.

    HUGS and prayers.
    26 days ago
  • ALIHIKES
    Very frustrating. But I do think it will be safer to rent a beach house. Flying is a little bit scary, as are crowds. The essential part of the trip is spending relaxing time with family. And you can do that!
    26 days ago
  • LORI-K
    Sure, things could be worse, but your feelings shouldn’t be minimized at all. This trip was a big deal to all of you for many reasons.
    I like the idea of exploring the beach house option. The company is what was most important.
    Hang in there and good luck on Plan B.
    All of my travel plans are on permanent hold. Makes me sad, too.
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    26 days ago
  • SPICY23
    emoticon So sad and frustrating; but better to have found out before getting stranded somewhere. You have the right response: create an experience for your family that is feasible and possible in these uncertain times. The kids will remember the fun times more than the location, especially if the adults are upbeat and enthused. Staying healthy is a bigger priority at the moment. Be thankful you can get the clan together.

    Peace and Care
    26 days ago
  • KOFFEENUT
    I know this is a huge disappointment, but good for you for stepping back and looking at the bigger picture. There ARE things you can still do to celebrate family and build some wonderful memories together!
    26 days ago
  • MARITIMER3
    I understand completely... Aria and I are still playing cruise ship, and hoping that we will be able to travel next year, although we are concerned about flying too. And I know it’s different for you because of Patrick’s illness.

    I know that you will find a way to have a special holiday together, and everyone will love it.
    26 days ago
  • MTN_KITTEN
    Yep ... find a local beyond cool place for the fam to be together.

    Things to remember:

    Not alllll of us can be in close physical contact with our loved ones.
    Some of us ... me ... have lost loved ones to this @#$%!!! virus.
    You are optimistic ... make this a stay-cation to remember!!!

    YOU got this.
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    26 days ago
  • NEW-CAZ
    Liz if I know one thing about you, it's that you are resourceful.
    You'll find a way to create something you still can do!!!! emoticon
    26 days ago
  • LESLIESENIOR
    I know you will find a wonderful way to celebrate with your family. I’m glad you are feeling and expressing your feelings. I believe that your family will be safe and healthy and happy and able to build many more memories together. Patrick’s health is so important as is the health of all of you. Big hug as you work through those feelings!
    26 days ago
  • OVERWORKEDJANET
    Yes, find another place and make it your island.
    I'd be all out getting coconut drink mugs, fake palm trees, mango smoothies and island music play lists!
    Turn it around into something you still can do!
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    26 days ago
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