The Ups and the Downs
Sunday, July 26, 2020
OK something is up and it is either very good---or very not good and just plain scary. The day before yesterday I stepped on the scale… I had been stuck in the 180’s for many months and was just praying that that day it would be in the lower 180s. Well imagine my shock when the scale read 175! I wanted to dance. But did harbor a small voice that questioned the weight. Maybe my scale batteries were no good? I mean, who loses 10 lbs in a single day or two? The next day my weight was 176 and this morning it was 170! I’m kind of afraid that by writing this, I’m going to “Jinx” myself. It could be a malfunction of my scale….or declining batteries…but the scale usually Is erratic when that is the case and this has been rock solid and consistent. Each day I have weighed myself three or four times (at one time) and each time it comes out the same.
I think part of the “problem” is that I have ZERO appetite. In the past three days, my calorie intake has been well below 800 / day. Not deliberately. If anything, I have been deliberate about making myself eat…I had a milkshake three days ago and the day before yesterday had a Wendy’s Frosty…but couldn’t take more than a bite of the chili I’d bought. The only times this has happened in the past is when I had pneumonia or when I was in severe pain, like following my hip dislocation. My pain is bad, but it is not like that was. That was beyond endurance, beyond description. And I’m quite sure I don’t have pneumonia. I do have a bad UTI which, believe it or not, I’ve had non-stop, one after another, for over a year and a half. I guess maybe that could account for it. It could also be something much more sinister – but I won’t think about that.
And, yes, it could be a malfunctioning scale battery – but II don’t think so. It is too consistent and doesn’t jump around. So rather than dwelling on the “why”s I’ve decided just to enjoy the ride.