musings on the SP website vs app
Monday, August 03, 2020
I feel guilty every time I start Spark and say "this time I'm really gonna stick with it". I join new groups, get excited about blogging again, and think everything will go smoothly.
Of course it doesn't go smoothly. I forget to check-in on a team page, or skip a day of reading the coaching advice, or don't log my water for days on end and then try to "fill in the gaps" from memory. The days between check-ins goes longer, and eventually I stop coming altogether.
I know Spark is a great place to be. I've been here since 2007 or 2008, so Spark has been with me for a while. I don't know why I can't prioritize time for it, considering all the time I waste most days reading through Reddit or playing mindless games on my phone. And I'll admit, the fact that most of Spark's resources are not available on the mobile app is a part of it. It's not as easy to do it "mindlessly" - I have to consciously get out the computer, log on, and get going. Not that those are difficult to do, it's just a fraction more effort than pulling out the phone, but that fraction is enough on days when I'm out of motivation.
I do like the mobile app for tracking food & water, and reading through the community feed. But it doesn't have the team message boards. It doesn't have the full tracking for other goals. It doesn't have the Bonus Wheel! And making a blog post is 100 times harder (at least for me) on the app. I have a lot of the same issues with the mobile site.
But all of these are just excuses - me trying to justify my actions by "blaming" the app. But it's not the app's fault, it's mine for not using it consistently, or moving 10 feet to the computer and using the full site. It's just one in a million small things each day where I take the lazy path, where my inner toddler voice asks "why is it so haaard". And that's the voice I need to turn off. Because it's not hard, not at all. I'm just too comfortable in my routines.
But those routines got me up to over 230 lbs. And that's not okay. It's not just about the big decisions to "eat less, exercise more". It's the million small decisions each day. Those are the ones I need to change. Those are the only ones that matter.