The winds of change
I don't know what to call this entry.
I finished August out with no gusto. I didn't get to my 60 days of exercise until today... Saturday, I don't even remember what I did; I barely made my step goal and didn't make it to 5 of 5 days of exercise-- 4 of 5 days, the first one in months.
Sunday I spent doing so much housework. Including gardening and got over 10,000 steps in just from that! I didn't count that as exercise because my fitbit didn't count any of it as active minutes.
Monday came and I tackled my morning walk in the rain-- and did over 6 miles!
Tuesday was spent playing catch up as my little one had a really rough night and woke up often due to something hurting her-- growing pains? I don't know but she was miserable and had no other symptoms other than telling me her leg hurt. Poor little; she woke up ready to tackle her day on Tuesday morning though as though she didn't wake up 327 times crying. So, I didn't get to my exercise, I don't remember much other than I ate breakfast and didn't have lunch and skipped right to dinner.
This morning I conquered 5.41 miles and didn't get to eat until lunch time again.
I am struggling with this work from home thing this past week; lacking motivation, feeling overwhelmed and stuck and just exhausted. I would assume that many others are feeling the covid-exhaustion; this never-ending feeling of things that need to be done, our wants put on hold due to the pandemic and current chaos that is our country. I'm just so tired and cannot adapt to this new 'normal'.
So I am feeling a bit blah to be honest but I am trying to stick close to my goals even though I'm feeling a bit discouraged.
My weigh in was Tuesday for the no-scale challenge of August. I am still kicking myself for my lackluster weekend. I lost 7 pounds in August.
And I don't feel like that's good enough.
But am I being unrealistic? Or am I being rightfully indignant with my slow progress?
I think I am going to continue on into September with the scale; I'll weigh once a month and just move on, instead of obsessing over every single thing that can cause fluctuations on the daily.
So, I'm struggling a bit but trying to get it all together.
I hope all my sparkfriends are doing better than I am this week! Any tips on how to find the lost motivation for work? How can I get excited about my job and get my to-do list done?!
Can I just be a stay-at-home mom that exercises and cooks healthy meals? I'd be pretty good at that.
Too bad we need my income and health insurance to survive, right?