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The Good, The Bad And The Ugly

Thursday, September 17, 2020

The good:
I am blessed with good friends and family.
I’m basically healthy (for my age).
I have all of the creature comforts that I need.
God saved me from being crushed in my accident.
I have a relationship with God.
I have pretty good medical care.
Technology has let me communicate somewhat with others.
We have wonderful neighbors.
My neighbor invited me to do a virtual bible study.
I have a great counselor who understands me.
My hubby and daughter are super supportive.
My daughter and SIL were able to walk away from a house (They put a contract on it) that an unscrupulous person was trying to sell them.
I, hopefully, will start cognitive therapy soon.
My brain Injury has improved somewhat since January.
I am tenacious when given a task.
I am an optimist.
I’m a hard worker.
I’m determined to improve.
I’m so much better off than a lot of people right now.
Zeus is continuing to get better.
Doggie health insurance is helping with the cost of Zeus’s medical care.

The bad:
I miss personal contact with my family and friends.
I miss working out at the gym. (Necessary for brain healing.)
I need live social interaction but I’m not getting it. (It is necessary for brain healing - speech/processing.)
My primary care doctor has been silent during my injury.
Sometimes I feel stupid even though I have a high IQ, because my brain is not working right now.
Some of my friends have kind of disappeared due to COVID-19.

The ugly:
I got the results of my cognitive testing today and it isn’t pretty.
I need cognitive therapy.
Some brain damage may be permanent.
I can’t get my shoulder fixed because of my brain trauma. (No surgery)
The driver who hit me doesn’t have insurance.
I’m forced to pay for some of my medical care, from the accident, out of pocket because the driver who hit me didn’t have insurance. The bills are piling up. It’s pay the bills or ruin my credit. Not a good choice. Very stressful.
Stress aggravates my thought processes.
Anxiety is part of my brain injury and creates stress. Stress makes it hard to think. It’s a cycle.
I can’t always understand what people are saying to me.
I’m very scared.

As I’m reading this, I realize that there are lots of good things going on in my life right. Writing this blog has been cathartic. Even though I was stunned, slammed and overwhelmed by the results I got from my cognitive testing today, I still maintain the hope for a better tomorrow. I plan to ignore the bad and ugly and focus on the good. It will lift my mood and make me feel much better.
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    A very good thing was that you shared this with us! It made me aware that others are going thru pain that we aren't even aware of. I'm sorry I couldn't have been there for you before, but please know you are on my prayer list, and that God will give you the strength for whatever you are going thru. I will be thinking of you of you of healing thoughts and many prayers. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    Much love to you Cyndi!🙏💖🤗😍🙏
    32 days ago
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  • L*I*T*A*
    prayers continue for continued improvement on your health issues!!
    you are such an inspiration to us all...........

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    34 days ago
    ((((HUGS)))) and sorry to hear that the results of the cognitive testing weren't positive, but good you can start cognitive therapy. Hopefully it helps your ability to function more easily.

    Prayers and thanks for the update.

    34 days ago
    Reading your blog, doesn't appear to be anything wrong with your positive, healthy thoughts to me! emoticon emoticon emoticon Keeping you in my prayers, SPark ON! emoticon emoticon
    34 days ago
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