Sunday, October 04, 2020
After much thought, I have finally set up automatic transfers from my checking account to my savings account every time I get paid. I am going to save at least 20% of my net pay in order to set myself up for success.
Yesterday, I dined outside (indoor dining is still banned in LA due to COVID) at Denny's with my roommate. It was nice, but too hot! Then we watched "Trolls World Tour" on her sister's Hulu account, and it was fun! :) I love musicals!
Tonight, my roommate and I are going to watch "Charlie's Angels" (2019). I also love girl power movies!
All my life, I have been self-conscious of my broad shoulders, large head, and short and thick neck. I would do everything in my power to downplay my masculine features through clothing and hairstyles. But now I'm going to try to let go of my insecurities. If someone doesn't want to be with me because of things out of my control, then that's their problem. I'm going to wear cute, comfortable clothes that fit, and try to be confident.
I do feel more confident now that I moved out, have my own car, and stand on my own 2 feet. I'm not sure if I'm going to date men, because the thought of marrying a man just seems wrong. Sometimes I think I am attracted to men, but there's this concept called "compulsory heterosexuality", and I think it might apply to me. In the end, I just want to be with someone who I am hopefully attracted to, and who will treat me well. 99.99% of the women that message me on Zoosk look like straight up dudes, and while I have no problem with butch lesbians, I am not attracted to them. Maybe I need to experiment with both men and women.
I got my work award yesterday; it turns out I got a cash award, but to be honest, I was disappointed with the amount. But I am trying to be grateful, because a lot of workplaces don't even give cash awards. Anything helps!