Monday, October 19, 2020
Okay, the day started out with me being angry at the pandemic.
Luckily, that’s just a feeling rooted in frustration, and after living a day in real time the feeling has passed. I can tell I’m still in need of space and grace, from myself to myself. It is major lifetime progress for me to be able to identify and feel the feeling. Feelings are not logical or rational. I dislike that about them, but they are part of what makes me human. Oh, well!
DH texted the suggestion that we air up his tires after work. Beni enjoys car rides, so we made it a family trip. I could tell it felt like a date to me because I left my ears in and my earrings on waiting for the fellas to be ready. It also gave me an excuse to drink a fancy coffee after work to help me stay awake for the boys.
Weight loss this week may be more than I can manage. I’m feeling the stress of car maintenance that will eat into tomorrow’s working hours. And the weather has snapped colder for the week, making me want to stay indoors and eat.
Awareness and acceptance before action.
Easy does it.
One day at a time.