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My Adventures in Spark Land...Fresh Start Monday!

Monday, October 26, 2020

"Every Monday is a fresh start"

emoticon Just a wee sad part....

I live on a street that is a block long. I live on one corner and at the other end is a Lutheran church and across the street from the Lutheran church is the Baptist church. I can see the back yard of the Baptist Church if I stand at my living room window and look left. A week ago the people from the Baptist Church stood beside the state hwy at the T other end of this road that is in front of their church and protested abortion. My friend told me when I called her Wednesday, 'You should have came in joined us.' This brought back painful memories for me. 24 years ago yesterday, I was raped. The NP told me when she told me I was pregnant also told me if I carried my baby to term, I could die, my baby could die or we both could die. I cried daily for the next 8 months! I had been preached at all my life from that very church that abortion is wrong! Then for the next 12 weeks I got preached at by my friends abortion is wrong. The medical social worker got me into a high risk pregnancy specialist who told me it was a old wives tale that if I stuck with him, we would not die. I was in my Bible daily 3-4 hours seeking God to know what is the right thing to do. My 23 year old son is the most precious thing in the world to me. Because of my experience, I will never tell a women abortion is wrong. When I told my story to my friend, She told me. 'Well if you died in child birth, then it was your time to die! At least you didn't have an abortion!' That is the worst thing you can say to any female!!!

Saturday I spent time with me son, my married brother, and my 16 year old nephew. They all made me feel so much better! My brother said every women is different. No one has the right to tell another person what to do!


emoticon Happy National Pumpkin Day!!!

emoticon Today I put last week behind me!

emoticon Yesterday I watched Maleficent part 1 & 2. I really need that little Disney Magic in my life yesterday! When I was watching the movie "Christmas Unwrapped" Saturday night on Lifetime, the main lady said she really envied the main man because he didn't lose that magic of believing of his childhood. I still had that fun magical believe until my son was born. All 3 of my son's grandparent's felt as if I need to 'grow-up' they didn't see that love of whimsical and magic is who I was. No one had the right to remove that from me. That was the core of who I was. My hearts desire was to be a parent. Now my hearts desire is to find that part of me again. I love watching movies that helps me feel that feeling inside again!

emoticon SP encourages everyone to live a healthier lifestyle. I have IBS. It causes me to have diarrhea and belly bloat. I personally think it's caused by stress. Being told 'If you died in Child birth then it's your time to die. At least you didn't abort." caused my stress levels to peak!!! As I watched the movies yesterday, I found on pinterest a list of worst foods to eat for IBS while I was looking into Low fodmap foods. I decided to start eliminating those food little by little starting Nov 1. That way I am not overwhelmed. Low fodmap said to only do their diet short term.

emoticon 20/20 is a year that you can look back and say 'it was a dumpfire of a year ' or it was a year of change. The choice is yours! I found a list of fun stuff to do. #71 is have a indoor picnic. That always sounded like fun to me. Never did it!

emoticon Each day I watch a Disney show to try bring back those 'feelings'. Yesterday was the TV show Recess. I remember my son liking that show.

emoticon My Halloween fun today is making Ghostly Hard Boiled Eggs and watching a Halloween movie.


emoticon What made me smile yesterday? My son is waiting for the okay to come to qualify to buy a house, In the meantime he is looking at houses. I suggested he go look at 2 he say posted from the outside. Yesterday in the snow showers he did. It made me smile!

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    Hope he finds the perfect house so you can be with him.
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    30 days ago
    God gave people a free will, so that we could make our own choices.

    Good luck to DS and qualifying to buy a house.

    The ghost eggs are adorable!

    Stay safe. Be well. emoticon
    30 days ago
    I'm choosing to see 2020 as a year we got to spend more time connecting with others. I'm not saying it has been easy by any stretch. There have been really rough patches to be sure. But like you, trying to look at things in a positive light, I'm choosing to focus on the good parts. Especially since I'm thinking 2021 is going to look pretty similar for at least the first half of the year.
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    I am sorry the events at Church and your friends comments brought back a time when you felt trauma. I have suffered trauma of a different nature numerous times in my life and you never really get over trauma I don't think . I think I am managing to move forward , but find others remarks can open old wounds. emoticon
    30 days ago
    you are right we have been a fresh 24 hours to work on journey

    Set a goal that makes you want to jump out of bed in the morning. And make IT
    Making each day count! At any given moment you have the POWER to say this is NOT how the story is going to END!! Get ready to Have a great Tuesday

    30 days ago
    Thank you for sharing your story and your thoughts. Sorry for any stress that your "friend" may have put on you. Glad you were able to spend time with family on Saturday. Sounds like you have a great brother.

    Wishing you a wonderful week ahead.
    30 days ago
  • LINDA!
    I do not believe anyone should say what you should or should not do when it comes to abortion. It is the decision of the parents of the child - in your case, it was the decision only for you to decide. So happy that you did follow through to have your child. I know that your son brings a lot of "sunshine" to your life. emoticon
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    emoticon I know your story will encourage other women facing difficult decisions. Thanks for sharing.
    30 days ago
    That is right. NOone has the right to tell another person what to do under those circumstances.

    That's so exciting that your DS is looking @ houses. Wishing him the very best of luck.

    30 days ago
    Your story touched my heart, thank you for sharing it. Yes we each have to make decisions for ourselves/our lives that work best for us and you're doing great emoticon
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