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Monday, November 02, 2020

I just read an SP blog, "You Got Called Fat, Now What?"

I couldn't read it all. Let me take that back. I could have read it all, I chose not to. It hurts, honestly, bringing back unpleasant memories from the majority of my life.

At 5 my Dad was telling me, "You don't want to be fat. You'll be miserable your whole life." Once when my room was cluttered, he called it "dirty," he made a sign that said "Pig Pen" and put it above my bedroom door. Even at 5, I equated that less than my messy room than I did with weight.

When I was 10 he made me walk a mile a day. When I began to return quicker than he thought I should, so he went with me. Many years later, my Mom said he laughed as he told her he had a hard time keeping up.

To be honest, I have called myself "FAT" thousands of times, if not millions, more than it has been said or inferred by others. This is my struggle. I AM MY STRUGGLE. No matter what was said or wasn't, every choice to eat this and not that or walk or not is mine.

Thank you for listening/reading,
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    68 days ago
    I had to take the bad off the word. Decide it’s just 3 letters and no longer has control over me.
    I had someone ask me what I’m going to do about my loose skin. I thought for a minute, smiled, and said wear it like a badge of honor.
    Before that question would have took me to my knees, as the word fat did. I won’t lie and say it was easy to change my thinking. But it’s sure helped me to do so.
    73 days ago
    I'm working really hard to separate "fat" from all the negative baggage that comes with it - "lazy" "ugly" "unworthy" etc. Because I *am* fat... But that doesn't mean I'm not motivated, beautiful, and worthy as well!
    73 days ago
    I'm sorry about what happened to you. I have my own struggles associated with being fat at a young age and although I'm older and wiser, I can still feel those negative words and situations that have caused permanent damage to my self confidence and self esteem than I want to admit. One thing for sure... what we say or think about ourselves can be healing or damaging as well. emoticon
    73 days ago
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