i Don't Know
Sunday, January 10, 2021
what I have to safely say. I've gotten myself into trouble lately for being too open about my
mental health struggles of late. So I will refrain from comment except to ask you for prayer as i deal with an Identity Thief/stalker...that is all I can/will say.
As far as my weight goes, I have not been tracking or being mindful at all But I think I've lost some weight. How do I "THINK" I've lost weight. Well yesterday the scale said I weighed 174...I thought "that's nuts. I know I've gained weight not lost. " So I weighed again and it said 182 which I thought was more accurate. Today I weighed 174 and 175. I could not get a weight in the 180's --all were in mid 170s. Tomorrow I will put new batteries (AGAIN!) in the scale and see where I stand. I keep pouring batteries into this scale. I think I need a new one. My dad had one of my mom's which was an analog one with very large numbers (which is what I need). but it was a little too big for our little bathroom, so I had to send it back home with dad,
When your life is imploding, it doesn't matter whether you have a piece of chicken and salad for dinner or a PBJ (which is what i had last night). Just something to put in my mouth and chew up. It doesn't matter if it is healthy or low cal. And everything I"ve eaten I end up leaving between 1/2 and 1/4 of it uneaten.
But last week I spent 3 or 4 days at dad's and I always eat well there. It's maybe not the most low-cal but pretty good home cooked food and 3 square meals a day. Plus I can't fail to mention the box of delicious chocolate ice cream sandwiches he bought for us to share. So that is probably the only thing standing between me and a thinner me.
So that's what's up, (as much as I could say here). Please pray for me folks. I don't want to end up in the hospital but i might. I've missed you, my friends.