Sunday Binge Day
Monday, October 08, 2007
Sigh….I am personally experiencing the truth of the statement that pride goes before the fall. I had a rough day yesterday. Ate way too much and drank nothing but soda.
I can’t quite put my finger on why I did it. I didn’t actually eat binge food, just the stuff around the house. And I didn’t even enjoy it. It’s like trying a puff of a cigarette 4 years after you quit, it tastes like crap, but you somehow know if you suffer through it for awhile, it will start to taste good again.
Is that not the most pathetic thing you have ever heard?
Looking on the bright side I had 13 good days, and 1 bad day. I went 13 days without a binge.
And today, the morning after, I feel like crap. My stomach hurts, I have a horrible headache, I’m tired and didn’t want to get out of bed this morning.
Not to mention the psychological consequences; the feelings of failure, defeat, and inadequacy.
But I am not going to dwell on it. I honestly didn’t expect this was going to be easy. I had no illusions that I was going to lose all this weight perfectly and never struggle and never stumble.
Today is a new day.