Frustrated but kind of proud
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
So, I haven't weighed myself in around a week, and I'm kind of proud of that because I was so totally dependent on the damn scale and now I'm not. I have been eating when I'm hungry and not depriving myself, but I haven't been binging either. After the holidays I'm going to do an up day down day diet just to give my metabolism a boost. I am not totally concerned about the scale considering I really am not binging at all so I shouldn't worry about my weight. I am currently wearing a pair of jeans that I got on clearance at Old Navy, they are a pair of 8's. I can't believe that I am wearing something in the single digits. It's amazing to me.
I am really happy that I broke free from the control that the scale had over me. I was seriously basing my attitude of the day on what the scale said in the morning. I have a much better attitude now that I'm not weighing myself every day. I haven't resorted to anything drastic lately to try to "purge" calories either. I've been trying to be as healthy as can be, sticking to my vegan diet (although sometimes not so vegan but definitely vegetarian). I am going Christmas shopping to
day with my friend Manda and we're going out to eat for Supper so I'm going to pick someplace healthy to eat.
I am happy with myself and I think it's because I am not looking at the scale. My clothes fit fine and that's all that matters. I am trying to lose some weight but I'm going to just weigh myself once a month I think so that I can be less controlled by the scale.
Anyway that's my business for today. I'm going to try to write in here every day but who knows, sometimes I can be fickle about these sorts of things.