Conquering that mountain
Friday, October 04, 2013 1 comments
Yesterday I stood in front of a mountain of chocolate for two hours. There was so much of it for us to give away and eat that I could smell the fine scent of heaven, even through their wrappers. Each one was its own individual bundle of joy. Sil... Read more
Thursday, October 03, 2013 7 comments
I have been mourning the death of my marriage for some time and just dreading moving into the future. Today is a particulalry bad day. What was once a bautiful marriage has turned into a story so sad that I wish to wrap my head around it's... Read more
I cheated last night.
Wednesday, October 02, 2013 4 comments
Today is actually a good day because I woke up! Last night I had a tiny mini binge- it really wasnt much at all, rather it was 3 cookies and some chips. Normally, it would have turned into some gluttonous free for all. So acutally I am quite p... Read more
Into the future
Tuesday, October 01, 2013 3 comments
I have been down this road before. My life is splayed out before my like some animal's rotting carcass that was run over by a mack truck. It still sucks, and its not easier. Turning to food was like walking into a blanket fresh out of the dryer,... Read more
Cottonseed oil - a food?
Thursday, September 20, 2012 1 comments
Last time I checked cotton was not a food item. Furthermore, cottonseed oil was not something I had heard of being used as a foodstuff, alas, I have been finding it in just about everything lately. What is cottonseed oil? Cottonseed oi... Read more
Pain vs. suffering.
Friday, September 14, 2012 2 comments
It has been 4 days in a row that I have been eating within my calorie range, this is normally a sticky point for me since by day three I am feeling uncomfortable with the controlling my eating aspect of losing weight. Last night I found myself s... Read more
ONE little success at a time.
Thursday, September 13, 2012 2 comments
Today I weighed myself to find that I had actually lost almost 8 pounds. This is exciting for me, but historically, this is also where I throw in the hat and eat like a madwoman. Food is the past has been the blanket that keeps me warm and ... Read more
Overcoming Sadness while maintaining control
Wednesday, May 12, 2010 5 comments
My husband is in another country to do art for a 5 month stint has completey disengaged from me. My son has been very ill with a bone infection and we have gone through hell for the past 2 months. Normally I would eat myself into a c... Read more
MayDay- Body Bugg Arrives
Monday, May 10, 2010 1 comments
The body bugg I ordered arrives today and I am thrilled! In anticipation of this event, I have begun to exercise and, much to the delight of my son and my family, they are seeing a difference. I have lost now, nearly ten pounds, but for me... Read more
Monday, September 21, 2009 1 comments
Its been a rather good day, I was somewhat active this morning by doing crunches for at least 10 minutes.. Yes I know what the heck is ten minutes of exercise?.. it is a heck of a lot when you can hardly move as is the case for me at this point.... Read more
The real me.
Saturday, September 19, 2009 1 comments
This is the real me, the me that hides behind these layers of fat. The heat almost killed me at my son's soccer practice this morning.. nearly 3 hours on my feet and running around. Not to mention my husband left me with the kids there and I was... Read more