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Anxiety Attack
Monday, November 10, 2014      4 comments

So I've been having anxiety attacks in my sleep for the past few months. Or I suppose it would be better to say I've been waking up in the middle of having an anxiety attack while I was sleeping. I've taken to taking my anxiety meds right before... Read more
Getting back up
Sunday, November 09, 2014      5 comments

What a crazy/great day I had Friday. I was ready to collapse when I got home, but the smile on the kids faces was priceless. We had CC and stayed for most of lunch so they could play. Then our friend asked if we wanted to meet at a park... the o... Read more
A case of the Blah's
Thursday, November 06, 2014      5 comments

Thank you so much for your prayers. My anxiety got worse and worse, till I just knew I'd be unable to drive. So DH drove us and we waited in the parking lot playing games till the worship team was done with practice. The kids were up late, but I... Read more
Awful Mood
Wednesday, November 05, 2014      6 comments

Woke up in a FOUL mood this morning. emoticon Going to try to do what I can to get back in a good mood. My small do... Read more
I'm back!/Bear
Tuesday, November 04, 2014      6 comments

Okay, so I'm still feeling a little off. I haven't been getting up on time, or doing my morning routine, or working out, or eating well.... I haven't been doing a lot of things. But I'm back, I got up almost on time this morning and am ready to ... Read more
Ramblings
Friday, October 31, 2014      5 comments

First, my results: I'm good. The cysts I have are normal, the only reason I may need to go back is if they get infected again, like it had been when I had the sore on my breast. Then it may need to be removed. But that is it, I'm good!! Yay and ... Read more
Rainbows
Tuesday, October 28, 2014      5 comments

I've got an appointment to see a surgeon "breast specialist" today. I'm still confused as to why. If my mammogram was okay, why do I need to see a specialist? I guess better safe than sorry? Makes me nervous when the doctor is inconsistent. ... Read more
Recap of and Adding To 3 Month Goals
Sunday, October 26, 2014      7 comments

Checked back through my blogs and found my 3 month goals. Let's see how I'm doing: Starting weight: 244 ~Still at this weight Goal weight: 233 (one pound a week) I'm hoping for more weight loss, but I'll be happy with 11 pounds! My... Read more
Solutions
Saturday, October 25, 2014      5 comments

In the military I was taught never to present or bring up a problem unless I also had a solution. So I'm working on solutions for my beliefs about myself. 1. My ideal weight will draw too much attention. For this I need to rationalize that ... Read more
Brave/Apathetic Today
Friday, October 24, 2014      3 comments

First I want to say thank you all for the encouragement, it really means a lot to me!! I've been called brave several times in the last two weeks and I honestly never thought of myself as that. Thank you so much for helping me to see that there ... Read more
Therapy & My beliefs (about me)
Thursday, October 23, 2014      5 comments

What a hard therapy session yesterday. My homework? To write down my beliefs about myself. The goal? To adjust my beliefs about myself. Okay, so here goes... 1. I believe that losing this weight will make all my problems better. Yup, for so... Read more
Drive Thru and To Do
Wednesday, October 22, 2014      4 comments

Didn't get much on my To Do List done yesterday, but I made an exception for that day and will just move the list to the back of the line and continue with my To Do List for each day. I knew I would not get all of it done as we were going to the... Read more
Goodbye to perfectionism and laziness
Tuesday, October 21, 2014      6 comments

Who knew being a perfectionist could make you be lazy? I'm the kind of perfectionist whose brain goes, "If I can't do it perfectly, it's not worth doing at all." Yikes. So a lot of things around here have not been getting done, and I've felt ver... Read more
Tackling Today
Monday, October 20, 2014      3 comments

Must get in the mindset: ready to tackle the day! I've got so much I want to get done today, but I'm going to have to be on the go all day! I want to do this, I want to be up and going more, I want to get this stuff done, and I don't want to be ... Read more
10/19/14
Sunday, October 19, 2014      3 comments

Spent yesterday at Hobby Lobby with my MIL. She is learning to make wreaths and invited me to go with her. So we spent a good 4 hours together, maybe 5. And she talked the whole time ... Read more

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