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Getting Back In The Swing of Things
Friday, March 03, 2017      5 comments

You would think that I'd be able to get back into the swing of things right away, it was only 8 days in the hospital, right? I know that is a longer stay that I usually spend (3-4 days), but it wasn't like it was that long. But I think getting s... Read more
First Full Day Home... Big News
Thursday, March 02, 2017      8 comments

I feel exhausted, but happy that I'm home from the hospital. We went grocery shopping, which made me a little anxious, but was my usual grocery store, so not as much as it would have going somewhere else. I got a lot of veggies, fruits and healt... Read more
Back from an 8 day hospital stay
Wednesday, March 01, 2017      10 comments

I'm so sorry that i have not gotten back to your emails and comments, I've just gotten back from being in the hospital for 8 days due to my PTSD, anxiety and other such things. I'm doing okay now, I'm in a better frame of mind although I'm still... Read more
If you don't hear from me for a while...
Monday, February 20, 2017      10 comments

I thought I had turned my dark thoughts to bright ones, but they still plague me. I tried to turn my "I quit" around. And I did, for a moment. But then the moment passed and life is looking bleak again. I did not need to be alone today, so... Read more
Turning my "I Quit" Into "I Commit"
Monday, February 20, 2017      9 comments

For the 3rd day in a row I was up at 0300 with a panic attack. I was too wired from the panic attack to go back to sleep, but too exhausted to not go back to bed. What a conundrum. And I thought to myself, "I quit." This is too hard. All the men... Read more
Day 141/ Asking for Help is Hard/ Service Dog
Saturday, February 18, 2017      7 comments

Today i restart the VLCD. I was going to Monday but then this week happened. This time I'm not going to let my anxiety and such get in the way because I have a goal: My future service dog. I started a GoFundMe Account at http://w... Read more
Day 140/ Oops I hit the send button!
Friday, February 17, 2017      5 comments

I wrote two blogs on my site CrouchingFlea yesterday. One was part of my testimony, how I was saved and how the church literally saved me when I was younger. The other, much longer blog is on what is going on right now with me. I have felt led ... Read more
Day 139/ Cancel Everything/PTSD Service Dog?
Thursday, February 16, 2017      7 comments

I had to cancel everything yesterday. My anxiety was so bad, there was no way I could have driven, and DH was working so could not drive me. No way I could have taught crochet class. When I get extreme anxiety like this I stutter and can't hold ... Read more
Day 138/Anxiety/Food Idol
Wednesday, February 15, 2017      9 comments

emoticon Just another manic... Wednesday Oh-ohooooh! ... Read more
Day 137/Anxiety with a capital A
Tuesday, February 14, 2017      8 comments

I wrote my new week stuff out yesterday hoping it would help me to really feel it and be motivated to do it. And I do, I want to make this stuff work, but, to quote Shinedown; "There's a monkey on my back and he don't know how to act, got me cli... Read more
Day 136/ A New Week, A Fresh Start
Monday, February 13, 2017      7 comments

This is the week all my new plans go into place, looking at things positively... emoticon Going on the more st... Read more
Day 135/ Anxiety Overload and Homeschool.
Sunday, February 12, 2017      6 comments

I barely made it through church service this morning. Seriously it took everything I had not to bolt out the door and hyperventilate. I took my meds, c... Read more
Day 133/Driving Anxiety, my Gilded Cage
Friday, February 10, 2017      7 comments

So, I made green juice yesterday, had two glasses. I should be having some right now, but... coffee. I love the flavor of this green juice, I didn't use much parsley the middle of the bunch was completely bad. I'll drink two glasses again today ... Read more
Day 132/ I think I made a friend!/ VLCD
Thursday, February 09, 2017      2 comments

I've been on a kick about getting my kids more involved, but people don't realize how hard that is when you have anxiety. It will be easier once I have my service dog, but that is well over a year, year and a half away, if not two years away. I ... Read more
Day 131/ The Joy Stealer; depression
Wednesday, February 08, 2017      11 comments

Good morning peeps! Today is my busy day and I'm off this morning, so guess what I'm going to do? Take the morning nice and S-L-O-W!! ... Read more

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