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True Confessions
Friday, February 26, 2010      4 comments

For the past maybe week, I've been delinquent on this site...and with the program. I've been pretty much eating whatever I felt like having and today I weighed myself to see what damage I've done...To the tune of about 6 pounds gained! Is it e... Read more
Tuesday, February 23, 2010      1 comments

well, February is on it's way out...and March is going to ease in like a lamb or roar in like a lion. I hope it roars as it enters....then it can ease on out gently. And coming in roaring almost gives the image of "taking the month by storm" w... Read more
Wednesday, February 17, 2010      3 comments

I weighed myself today...and have gained four pounds. I know that this weight is probably from the steroids (I'm swollen beyond belief...I can't even recognize myself in the mirror). BTW I take steroids for asthma, not for muscles!! (it's a di... Read more
Angry Eating
Tuesday, February 16, 2010      1 comments

Last night, sleep did not come easily. For some reason I was plagued with tough questions about my existence and feeling quite hopeless about things. I do not normally allow myself to flounder like that, but last night I was sucked into a vor... Read more
Being Satisfied
Saturday, February 13, 2010      1 comments

Face it; satisfaction is a big motivator. The question is, do we choose to be satisfied by that ice cream sundae? Or with a good workout in the gym? And what if the workout i... Read more
Returning and Embarking
Thursday, February 11, 2010      0 comments

I have been on the brink; on the precipice between life and death, teetering precariously for a few days....and now have seemed to settle back onto the shores of life. So now, I have to brush myself off and reassess...to maintain the lessons of... Read more
The Ravenous Lion is on the Loose
Monday, February 08, 2010      4 comments

I have determined that what is going on is that all of the IV steroids they've been pumping into me, have finally had "that" effect that I knew was coming: ravenous appetite. Up until now I was relatively safe; not feeling well enough to really... Read more
Sick and Disgusted
Saturday, February 06, 2010      7 comments

I have a friend. She is someone that I had not been in contact with for years, but who showed up in my hospital room during my last admission and who has been back during this one, almost everyday. That's a good friend, right? To come and sit... Read more
My quest must begin before it ends
Thursday, February 04, 2010      4 comments

I just got a very nice email from a Spark friend today, encouraging me as I lay in this hospital room... Well, I went to write back to her and to tell her of my pursuit today in writing a Motivational Incentive Contract for myself, (which was in... Read more
Decisions for Health
Wednesday, February 03, 2010      4 comments

I am not sure exactly how much control I have over my health status. Sometimes it seems like the harder I push and the more I do, the sicker I get....and sometimes, when I'm vegetating and resting, I'm constantly sick also. I have decided to tak... Read more
February Goals:
Tuesday, February 02, 2010      3 comments

My goals for this month will probably sound like baby pabulum to some of you heavy hitters of exercise ...who judge their runs and power walks by the kilometer and not the foot,... Read more
To live...or not the live; that is the ??
Monday, February 01, 2010      2 comments

After a week of being sick with the flu and really not coming close to making my calorie marks (coming under by at least half way), on Friday, I started to feel a tad better. I got out of bed and actually washed some dishes and sat up, straight... Read more
It's ONLY a Donut--or is it??
Friday, January 29, 2010      6 comments

I woke early this morning (3:00 AM early). As I laid in bed trying to talk my body into more sleep, the first hunger pangs I'd felt in a week began to twinge in me. I've been sick and haven't really eaten anything for the past five days or mor... Read more
From Anorexic to Obese
Wednesday, January 27, 2010      3 comments

I have this problem: I do not have, nor have I ever had a realistic idea of my body. This probably comes as a result of having anorexia for over 20 years...anorexics think (REALLY think) they are fat and cannot see the truth, even when looking ... Read more
the latest
Wednesday, January 27, 2010      0 comments

Today I went to the doctor...for a troublesome 102 fever and great trouble breathing. Guess what? Pneumonia! This is nothing new to me...I've had it, I think, four or five times. So, in keeping with my new goal of replacing negativity with g... Read more

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