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All Pain; No Gain
Sunday, January 12, 2020      4 comments

The title of this blog does not refer to the "pain" of eating to lose weight. It refers to the severe chronic pain i live with. "No gain" means I am not gaining weight. YAY! I haven't blogged for a few days. Actually I did post a blog but ... Read more
When "Down" is UP--and "Up" is DOWN
Wednesday, January 08, 2020      6 comments

I was ecstatic earlier this week when I not only sneaked into Onderland,...I went in with guns blazing and weighed in at 197. Then I crept up to 200 and then next day back to 198 and today am back once more at 200. I have eaten 1200 (+ or - ... Read more
Saturday, January 04, 2020      8 comments

I want to show you something. ARGHHH. I wanted to show you the graph which depicts my past year in weights but my efforts to do that have failed...SO I'll have to tell you in words: For over 3/4 of the year my weights were erratic...up and down ... Read more
Night Time Eating Disorder
Tuesday, December 31, 2019      4 comments

I have struggled with Night time Eating Disorder decades before people knew it was a "thing." It started before I was a teen...I would go and raid the kitchen, really not fully awake--and would leave a mess which is what blew my cover! When i ... Read more
The Focus
Monday, December 23, 2019      2 comments

I'm still at Dad's. Yesterday ate pretty lightly. Cream of wheat for breakfast. Tuna sandwiches for lunch and salad for dinner. Because I had done some overnight eating the night before, i had less calories free than I would have liked. Las... Read more
It Takes all Kinds
Sunday, December 22, 2019      5 comments

I just was reading two blogs by WATERMELEN....voted popular blog post for today, and with reason. She presents some good thoughts about the dubious wisdom of pushing your body harder than it was meant to go - pushing to the point where injury ... Read more
Reversal of a Bad Trend
Friday, December 20, 2019      4 comments

Yesterday I was quite discouraged. I had gained two pounds and then had two days of night time snacking. I felt guilty and out of control (the control issue is a leftover from 15 years of anorexia. Not a lot I can do about that at this point.... Read more
At the First Sign of Trouble
Thursday, December 19, 2019      2 comments

I have had two nights of midnight cupboard raids. The night before last it was damage to the tune of 500 calories. Last night it was 350. There is such a thing as misusing "fresh starts." When you know you can erase the damage by forgiving y... Read more
A Bright New Day
Wednesday, December 18, 2019      4 comments

Have you ever noticed how a "slip"quickly becomes an avalanche? For me the slip today was a Drumstick ice cream cone belonging to my husband---which I stole. Does theft become indulgence and indulgence becomes permission and permission becomes... Read more
The Other Side of "Amen"
Tuesday, December 17, 2019      3 comments

“See, the former things have taken place and new things I declare; before they spring into being, I announce them to you.” Isa 42:9 “Isaiah 43:19- “See? I am doing a new thing! Do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and st... Read more
Monday, December 16, 2019      4 comments

Well, I won't lie---my goal when i started this journey was all about numbers. The numbers that summed me up and found me wanting. The numbers that condemned me to a life of hatred for my body. The numbers that broadcast to everyone who saw m... Read more
Where Fitness and Illness Meet
Thursday, December 12, 2019      5 comments

I remember clearly the day that my quest for health began. I was in the hospital recovering from an asthma exacerbation that nearly took my life. As I laid in that hospital bed bloated and swollen by steroids, feeling so sick and weak that I ... Read more
Thankful Yet?
Thursday, November 28, 2019      1 comments

I wrote a blog before this one today. I titled it "Having a Thankful Thanksgiving" and then proceeded to complain and speak regretfully of things and people I have lost. I don't think that's what our country's fathers meant by naming this day ... Read more
Let's Hear it for Lemons!
Friday, November 22, 2019      4 comments

I drink a lot. (that sounded bad....but I meant non-alcoholic beverages). But you know, sometimes water just doesn't do it for me. I have Sjogrens which is an autoimmune disease that gives you dry mouth,dry eyes, dry EVERYTHING. If I don't ... Read more
Wednesday, November 20, 2019      3 comments

I have lost a lot of weight in the past month. 9 lbs to be exact. I know it is not good to lose weight too fast, but this loss has not really been deliberate (although it is certainly welcome!). I have had NO appetite, and when I do eat, the f... Read more

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