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A Hissy Fit
Sunday, February 09, 2020      5 comments

On Thursday I weighed a pretty good number, maintaining my lowest weight thus far. Friday, I stepped on the scale and GROANED. It read 4 lbs heavier!! For NO REASON.. I stepped on and off of it several times. Yep, it was persistent. I ... Read more
Hope Deferred
Friday, February 07, 2020      7 comments

King Solomon said "Hope deferred makes the heart sick"? That is undeniably true. And yet we must persist and keep hoping without losing hope. Every time we step on the scale we do so with hope...and there are times, sometimes for weeks, where... Read more
Keep the Faith!
Tuesday, February 04, 2020      4 comments

It seems like I have been struggling for weeks to stay on track and to keep the faith re: my diet and weight. I've been stuck at a certain weight for a number of days and have been besieged by doubts that I can pull this whole thing off. I feel... Read more
Home Again
Friday, January 31, 2020      4 comments

Yesterday, following a visit to my hip surgeon, I returned home, after spending a week at my dad's house. I always enjoy being there....getting away from a difficult marriage and my tiny, cramped house, and visiting with my dad who is my hero...... Read more
DOWNWARD and Forward!
Monday, January 27, 2020      5 comments

For once, I am not bemoaning anything or analyzing myself or trying to pick myself up by my bootstraps....I am simply rejoicing. Yesterday I met the goal I've worked toward since Nov 1st. And today, when i was certain that the scale would be u... Read more
Saturday, January 18, 2020      4 comments

well earlier in the week I was flying high...one pound away from my 20 lbs loss and next goal. But then came a couple of days.....days lacking in focus and commitment. I even forgot a coaching appointment until I received a "Where are you?" e... Read more
Hefty Hefting
Wednesday, January 15, 2020      2 comments

Yesterday i weighed myself....and to my great delight, the 196 was now a 194! And it is still 194 today. That means in one more pound, I will be at my second goal. The first was to get into Onderland and the second goal was to have lost 20 lb... Read more
All Pain; No Gain
Sunday, January 12, 2020      4 comments

The title of this blog does not refer to the "pain" of eating to lose weight. It refers to the severe chronic pain i live with. "No gain" means I am not gaining weight. YAY! I haven't blogged for a few days. Actually I did post a blog but ... Read more
When "Down" is UP--and "Up" is DOWN
Wednesday, January 08, 2020      6 comments

I was ecstatic earlier this week when I not only sneaked into Onderland,...I went in with guns blazing and weighed in at 197. Then I crept up to 200 and then next day back to 198 and today am back once more at 200. I have eaten 1200 (+ or - ... Read more
Saturday, January 04, 2020      8 comments

I want to show you something. ARGHHH. I wanted to show you the graph which depicts my past year in weights but my efforts to do that have failed...SO I'll have to tell you in words: For over 3/4 of the year my weights were erratic...up and down ... Read more
Night Time Eating Disorder
Tuesday, December 31, 2019      4 comments

I have struggled with Night time Eating Disorder decades before people knew it was a "thing." It started before I was a teen...I would go and raid the kitchen, really not fully awake--and would leave a mess which is what blew my cover! When i ... Read more
The Focus
Monday, December 23, 2019      2 comments

I'm still at Dad's. Yesterday ate pretty lightly. Cream of wheat for breakfast. Tuna sandwiches for lunch and salad for dinner. Because I had done some overnight eating the night before, i had less calories free than I would have liked. Las... Read more
It Takes all Kinds
Sunday, December 22, 2019      5 comments

I just was reading two blogs by WATERMELEN....voted popular blog post for today, and with reason. She presents some good thoughts about the dubious wisdom of pushing your body harder than it was meant to go - pushing to the point where injury ... Read more
Reversal of a Bad Trend
Friday, December 20, 2019      4 comments

Yesterday I was quite discouraged. I had gained two pounds and then had two days of night time snacking. I felt guilty and out of control (the control issue is a leftover from 15 years of anorexia. Not a lot I can do about that at this point.... Read more
At the First Sign of Trouble
Thursday, December 19, 2019      2 comments

I have had two nights of midnight cupboard raids. The night before last it was damage to the tune of 500 calories. Last night it was 350. There is such a thing as misusing "fresh starts." When you know you can erase the damage by forgiving y... Read more

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