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...and the Agony of Defeat
Sunday, June 21, 2020      3 comments

Remember Wide Word of Sports that used to be on either Saturday or Sunday nights? They had those clips in the beginning of the Thrill of victory and the Agony of Defeat......and with the latter phrase they showed skiiiers wiping out in the sca... Read more
The Highs and Lows
Friday, June 19, 2020      3 comments

I spoke to Beth the other day about how i am frustrated by the scale which seems to have its own mind regardless of what I eat. Last week, I was at a new low and two days later, while eating essentially the same number of calories I gained five... Read more
The Pivot Point
Sunday, June 07, 2020      4 comments

Pivot-point Have you ever seen soldiers (like the British soldiers who guard Buckingham Palace) who march in orderly lines and they go only so far when the spin on their heels and move as a unit 180 degrees in the opposite direction? That was ... Read more
Tuesday, May 26, 2020      0 comments

I went to my dad's house for the past two weeks to quarantine after three appointments at the hospital. It was nice being at dad's. Yes, I was in terrible pain but at least had someone to get me a drink of water and cook our meals. It's that la... Read more
Friday, May 15, 2020      5 comments

I am feeling like crying. I was on the last sentence of the best blog i'd ever written here on Spark. And my cursor got stuck and yep....i lost it. I can't re-write it. I'm heartbroken. Dang it, Spark, why can't you save our blogs as we ... Read more
oh my gosh! It's a Symphony!
Wednesday, May 06, 2020      3 comments

My daughter who is 28 and lives 2 hours from us in NJ, will not be able to come up for Mother;s Day because she works with the public and is afraid of possibly carrying some virus particles to her father or I because both of us are very high... Read more
Tuesday, May 05, 2020      2 comments

After a week of stumbling and a couple of days of doing my best to keep my calories at 1200--yesterday i had no appetite at all and i decided not to force myself to eat. Going without three meals in one day was not going to hurt me. I drank P... Read more
Saturday, May 02, 2020      4 comments

Well, as you saw in my last post that I was not in a good headspace. And although I could clearly discern the jeopardy I was in....i didn't pull out of my tailspin before there was damage. The real wakeup call was when the scale registered t... Read more
Wednesday, April 29, 2020      3 comments

Well, in my last post I shared that I'd lost 50 lbs--and I did. But ever since then I've moved back and forth between 185 and 188. Mostly though I've been parked at 186 (the 50lb lost weight). Beth suggested that I had not been eating enoug... Read more
50 lb Down
Monday, April 13, 2020      16 comments

I've done it. I've done what I had tried frantically to do for YEARS. I've lost 50 lbs. Such a composed, casual statement. One would never know the mental gyrations, the pain that robbed my appetite. The heartache I felt with every glance in... Read more
When are we Safe?
Wednesday, April 08, 2020      5 comments

I have been on self-imposed quarantine for three weeks. I have three of the high risk factors associated with COVID-19 and my family and friends have insisted I stay home...so i have, but it has been hard. For over a week I've had a cough tha... Read more
Another Word about Mid-Night Eating
Tuesday, March 31, 2020      4 comments

Ever since I was an elementary school, I have gotten up in the middle of the night, barely conscious, and gotten something to eat. A peanut butter sandwich, a stack of cookies, pudding....cereal. Often in the AM I will have no recollection of ... Read more
Fat and Fallible no More!
Saturday, March 14, 2020      7 comments

Have you ever had a catastrophe in your life--.-like the death of a loved one, a divorce, a major illness or surgery and you couldn't even look at food....and the weight "fell off" almost effortlessly. Three years ago, my mom died and I lost... Read more
A New Day
Thursday, March 12, 2020      1 comments

Facts: I started my journey (this time around) at 236. I made it to Onderland and was floating around the mid 190's. Then my hip dislocated and i was just in incredible pain for a week prior to my surgery to repair (replace again) the hip. ... Read more
Fear no Evil
Wednesday, February 26, 2020      2 comments

Hi all, thank you for stopping by to read my tale of woe :) A week ago from Thursday, i was siting in my recliner with it in the upright position and bent over to retrieve something from the floor and as I bent i felt the "OH JESUS HELP ME"... Read more

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