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Derailed by Illness
Sunday, January 23, 2011      9 comments

It's a long story...actually about one which was months in the unfolding...but suffice it to say that I'd discovered a mass in my abdomen which has been getting larger and about six weeks ago I began to hemorrhage. And in the past two weeks the... Read more
feeling like H***
Friday, January 21, 2011      10 comments

Looking awful...feeling worse.... Read more
Never Leave Empty
Tuesday, January 18, 2011      7 comments

This morning I was desperate. I haven't slept for longer than two hours in a night for weeks and weeks. Pain has been too intrusive for me to be able to maintain sleep. Today, I feel wrecked....felt so exhausted that I reasoned, if I could ju... Read more
Like a Stuck Doorbell....
Sunday, January 16, 2011      6 comments

It's funny. Since summer took a walk to the other end of the globe...and it's been too cold and the air has been too full of woodsmoke for me to be able to continue my outdoor "powerwalking" program,...I've been turning to that queen of video wo... Read more
Completely Clueless
Wednesday, January 12, 2011      9 comments

I have been leveled by pain for the past four days. My back and neck have invented new levels of "10"....and all I've been able to do is to sit in my recliner or lie in my hospital bed. I'd recently arrived at the "sweet spot" in my exercise r... Read more
Impressing the Doctor
Tuesday, January 11, 2011      11 comments

I went to the hip surgeon yesterday, and I confess, I couldn't resist wearing this maroon sweater dress and leggings with short black boots to the doctor's office. Reason?? When he operated on me in May, my weight was still over 200 and I jus... Read more
New Health, 63 pounds Lighter and 29"+ Lost...1 year later
Sunday, January 09, 2011      13 comments

I was just looking at my "stats" since joining Spark. Of course they are not really accurate, because I can only estimate what I weighed since I refused to weigh myself after I hit 210. My guess is about 220...But I have used 210 as my official... Read more
Sidelined and Bustin' Out
Saturday, January 08, 2011      8 comments

I've had some serious pain in the past several days. And I've basically "given up" - at least at exercise. Welllll, actually I've given up at self control also. I've been steroided to the eyeballs and this has given me a voracious appetite...... Read more
Bootcamp Re-Eval
Thursday, January 06, 2011      4 comments

The effects - at least the positive effects - of my epidural are gone. The only thing left now is the enlarged stomach (steroids cause your fat deposits to rearrange themselves into your face and abdomen; lovely--just lovely) and the raging a... Read more
The Other Half of the Coin
Tuesday, January 04, 2011      6 comments

The 28 Day Challenge and stepping up the exercise is ONE thing...the OTHER thing, obviously, is what I am putting in my mouth...and something has occurred to me about the REASON my eating has gotten so out of control and WHY I am feeling like if... Read more
Day One of Boot Camp: Rude Awakening
Monday, January 03, 2011      5 comments

As most of your might have "surmised" from my last blog, I struggle with ED. (and eating disorder)...and part of that illness is complete confusion about your body image...In other words, I have NO WAY of assessing in reality, what my body looks... Read more
ED Insanity
Sunday, January 02, 2011      7 comments

I've done it again....Gotten to a new low weight...and begun the feeding frenzy...I'm so afraid to weigh myself. And so wondering where the reality is ...Because I really don't know...For example not yesterday (yesterday I KNOW I went overboard... Read more
A re-Blog: Don't you love it When....
Friday, December 31, 2010      6 comments

...When you've decided to treat yourself, so you ate a few things which later left you overridden with guilt; but because you'd not eaten much for your meals, when you check your calorie totals, expecting the worst, YOU ARE STILL ON TARGET!! ... Read more
Over it and on with it....
Thursday, December 30, 2010      6 comments

First a note to take care of business: To everyone who regularly (or even occasionally) reads my blogs, a big "Thank you..." You are a huge encouragement to me and have really perceptive comments. I try to thank you individually, however som... Read more
Running --into Walls.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010      7 comments

Well, a week ago tomorrow was my epidural...which was incredibly effective at reducing my pain. It almost eliminated my back pain--Until today. I had a busy day planned. Picture a house where the primary person in charge of cleanliness and... Read more

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