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Welllll, here goes... again
Sunday, August 25, 2019      5 comments

My doctor agreed that I stop taking medication that was making me gain weight, because rapid weight gain was more unhealthy than the condition the medication was treating. The intense hunger cravings have subsided, so now it’s just a matter of l... Read more
I have undone my hard work
Tuesday, August 20, 2019      6 comments

After working so hard and losing so much weight, it didn’t really occur to me that I would start gaining it back. But these old terrible habits that I had had for so many years seem to catch up to me. Overtime I slowly begin to eat more and indu... Read more
Spirits Harm the Spirit
Thursday, March 21, 2019      6 comments

When I allow my drinking get out of control, I simultaneously allow every aspect of my health to get out of control. I try to manage it, but I always come to eventually realize that I have failed to do so. When that clarity hits me, I feel terri... Read more
Back at It
Monday, January 07, 2019      2 comments

Well, after giving up on my fitness and eating whatever and gaining back 20 some pounds, I’m back to the gym. I had forgotten how good it feels after I am burning up those cardio calories and how good it feels to be doing those bodyweight exerci... Read more
Friday, December 28, 2018      5 comments

I let a man distract me and stopped going to the gym, stopped exercising, stopped yoga, began drinking heavily, and gained 20. I am so disappointed in myself, but I’m not going back to fat me. Hell no. Maintenance is hard, and I lost track of m... Read more
Same Ten Pounds Haunting Me
Friday, July 13, 2018      4 comments

I worked really hard to lose 100 pounds. I have successfully kept it off for a year and a half now. However, over the last month I have been giving into temptation and partaking in cake, fast food, other such things, even though I know better. E... Read more
Thursday, March 22, 2018      3 comments

I've been doing body weight exercises for some time, but not daily like I am doing now. I am loving how I feel working my body every day and getting stronger. I'm seeing definition and just feeling amazing. I need to start tracking again, though... Read more
I bought a swim suit!!
Tuesday, February 20, 2018      3 comments

I did something today that I haven't done in a decade; something that instilled fear and loathing in me since I gained 100 pounds ten years ago. I work... Read more
Monday, February 12, 2018      2 comments

There are so many things out of my control, which I can accept. My body, my calories, my nutrition... that I CAN control. So when I am militant about calorie counting, making wise foods choices, and staying at my desired weight, I feel in contro... Read more
Self Validation
Wednesday, February 07, 2018      1 comments

What I tell myself when I feel rejected by others... I am the author of my story. Other people are but characters who play parts in my story. They have their own stories, too. I am the composer of my song. Other people can sing along, but I wr... Read more
Food tracking = Eating Disorder?!?!
Tuesday, February 06, 2018      4 comments

A chubby girl at work saw me tracking my calories in this app and told me that tracking calories is a feature of Eating Disorder and a sign of Anorexia. I've lost 100 pounds and I'm now slim, but to maintain, if I don't track, I gain. I don't w... Read more
I'm not used to the attention:(
Saturday, February 03, 2018      6 comments

When I was heavy, I was fairly invisible. I know much of that was because I felt unattractive after gaining 100 pounds. I dressed frumpy and didn't do much with my hair or makeup. But now, after losing 100 pounds, I take pride in my appearance.... Read more
Slim Shaming
Tuesday, January 30, 2018      4 comments

I lost 100 pounds. I'm now slim. I worked my arse off. Literally. There is a huge media push to end fat shaming, which is okay, conceptually, even though everyone knows being overweight contributes to health problems. Bullying is bullying, and t... Read more
Like riding a bike
Thursday, January 04, 2018      2 comments

Yeah, I am now an expert in weight loss, so I'm easily back on track. I know how to do this, i know my downfalls, I know how to dust myself off. I gained five pounds. Oh well. They'll fall off quickly again, and I'm very proud that that's all it... Read more
I gained. :(
Wednesday, January 03, 2018      1 comments

I have a handful of excuses as to why I gained 5 extra pounds. But the reality is that I stopped tracking food, started indulging in pizza, tacos and holiday treats. I stopped exercising and started drinking more. So I weighed today and got very... Read more

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