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Just plain tired...
Thursday, January 03, 2013      3 comments

I don't want to wake up in the morning... I don't want to go to sleep at night... Food never sounds good to me... I just want to give up. Buried in debt, buried in bills, only having a part time job, it all adds up. I'm sick and tired of being b... Read more
Fighting an addiction is difficult
Friday, December 07, 2012      2 comments

I don't smoke... I don't use illegal drugs... I abuse caffeine. When you start drinking it you don't think its addictive... you're just thirsty... well... here I am, about to start a dark road of no energy drinks. I know there will be with... Read more
Down and out
Tuesday, December 04, 2012      1 comments

Wow a lot has changed since I first started thinking about loosing weight. I've had minor health set backs and entered a state where I thought my weight just wasn't going to change. Well, I've been 2 months post surgery now and am itching to get... Read more
The wagon is a bumpy ride
Thursday, November 24, 2011      1 comments

I will be the first to admit that I've fallen off the wagon. I never made a follow up appointment to get my cortisol level checked, mostly because I just don't have the money. I started eating the same foods again and even though I've joined a g... Read more
Friday, October 14, 2011      1 comments

So that was a bust... he said that I could take all the vitamin d I wanted to and it wouldn't make a difference in my fatigue levels. In reviewing my blood work from my primary care doctor he said everything looked normal except my cortisol leve... Read more
The inner struggle
Thursday, October 13, 2011      1 comments

Its only day 3 and I already slipped and ate some McD's because it was quick (and the train crossing was blocking my way to the grocery store)... I need to find good options for food while I'm at work. We have two refrigerators and it seems like... Read more
Day 2
Tuesday, October 11, 2011      1 comments

What a Monday... I worked an extra hour today but for some reason it felt like an eternity. I hit the snooze button and left a little behind schedule which is something else I'd like to change. I took my new Fiber One cereal to work with me and ... Read more
Dinner on D-Day
Monday, October 10, 2011      1 comments

Well, in announcing my plan to my partner, Amanda, she decided to also give the website and mobile app a try. We discussed some exercise options and some meal options. Tonight, we are having ground turkey and homemade mashed potatoes. I know tha... Read more
The Decision
Monday, October 10, 2011      3 comments

It all came to a head this week. I looked in the mirror and what I saw absolutely disgusted me. I feel like physically I am at the lowest point in my life. I am at my heaviest and the number on the scale frightens me. At age 24 and at 170lbs I f... Read more