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Anniversaries and Losses
Wednesday, July 11, 2018      4 comments

So, this week I am marking a year without working. I have become officially disabled and un officially retired. This is so not what I wanted or envisioned. It's hard. I miss getting dressed - clothing is my life. I miss people. I have been ... Read more
4th July Independence
Wednesday, July 04, 2018      4 comments

The Fourth Of July was not my mother's holiday. She grew up in another country. As with Thanksgiving, she would state, "This is not my holiday. I did not grow up with it, but I will do it for you children.." So, we would have hot dogs and hamb... Read more
E's Story
Thursday, May 31, 2018      6 comments

I first saw E when I was in 9th grade. In those days, we still had junior high school. Her junior high was part of the high school I would attend the following year. There was a program to bring children from that school to ours for a sort of... Read more
Realizations and Gardens
Monday, May 28, 2018      7 comments

I am struggling with the disability designation. I knew it was coming. I know on all kinds of levels I need it. However, this means I need to come up with Plan B. So much of the last two and a half years have been spent looking for work, so... Read more
Vice Presidential Aspirations and Disability
Monday, May 21, 2018      10 comments

What did you want to be when you grew up? I was about ten and I sent away for career brochures. I think it was from an insurance company. I thought lawyer looked interesting and different. Girls just didn't become lawyers then. I also really... Read more
Urgency, Bathrooms, Mascots
Sunday, May 13, 2018      4 comments

I go to vendor shows to sell tea and tea accessories. In the last 6 months or so it has become challenging. Yesterday, I was signed up to do one at a church in the town I grew up in. The weather was filthy but it was to be indoors. Now, I g... Read more
Failure and Rising Again
Tuesday, May 08, 2018      5 comments

I did not make it to the Black/White Masquerade party. I did attend my tea. I was relatively sedentary. My friend did help me walk around the room. With her help, I successfully bid on a Luau basket. I guess there's a party in my future. ... Read more
Infusions and the Down Side of Skinny
Thursday, April 19, 2018      5 comments

I get a several hour infusion every six months. In fact, it has been 2 infusions 2 weeks apart and then a six month break. Yesterday was my last one of those and starting in October, I'll only need to do one every 6 months. Now as brave and... Read more
Surviving Funeral
Saturday, March 31, 2018      7 comments

My father-in-law died at the beginning of March. This was a much forecast death. My sister in law is a real Cassandra and has been telling everyone that he was dying for the last year. Despite this, we saw him this past summer in New York. D... Read more
Power of Pollyanna and Childhood Reading
Saturday, February 10, 2018      7 comments

The SuperBowl has been on my mind as it has recently passed. My family weren't football fans but totally baseball mad. Tom watched it in full for the first time in decades. Anyway, my mind was just drifting along and I remembered "Heidi loves... Read more
Upside of NP Visit
Sunday, February 04, 2018      4 comments

Warning: this is a ladies only kinda post. So yesterday was my annual gyn visit. I have been seeing a nurse practitioner for years and have followed her to new practice. At this time, she only sees patients like me, one Saturday a month. ... Read more
It's Only....
Tuesday, January 16, 2018      7 comments

I do not like the phrase "It's only." Years ago when I worked in fashion, another woman briefly joined the company. She had a better job than I did, but not by much. She was the scion of a prominent fabric company. We worked in the Empire St... Read more
Shopping Haul
Friday, December 29, 2017      5 comments

Well, I needed new stuff again. I am very proud of the fact that although I basically haven't worked in over 2 years, I continued to lose weight and inches. Last year in January, I did buy some pants and things as I did get a job. It was shor... Read more
Doctor's Visit, the Spectral Leg and the Motivation of Ugly
Monday, December 11, 2017      6 comments

Another doctor's visit - this one for rehabilitation. Here's a funny to start. Tom's dad had to go into physical rehab a few years ago in FL and when he rang to check on him, they connected him with drug and alcohol rehab. So, mine is for phys... Read more
Mourning Clothes
Wednesday, November 08, 2017      4 comments

I know it sounds trivial but I am mourning my clothes. The weather has snapped and I need heavier clothes. The way my house is structured there is only one real closet. We do have armoires upstairs, keyword - upstairs. I have enormous prob... Read more

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